Just a question....

I've been going through this period recently where I am always exhausted - mentally and emotionally. Sometimes people talk to me and I can't even tune in enough to process what they're saying. I mean - I literally walk off midway through the conversation and I don't even know why I do it.

I've been sleeping about 6-8 hours a night (which is my usual) but I wake up exhausted too.

I've never been this mentally sluggish and easily frustrated. I get these periods of irrational anger, too.
Anger + exhaustion + inattention = disaster.

The only two things that have changed since I've been having these problems - about 2.5 weeks - are the following:
- We're going through a strategy process at work which has taken a lot of time and emotional energy
- I've not been working out
- It's the end of the semester and I'm busy with class deadlines

I also recently got bitten by a spider...but other than that there have been no major illnesses or any other changes.

Any ideas about how I can cure my malaise? I'm starting to get worried - I can't focus, am always tired, and I scare myself when I get angry like I've been doing. Any and all suggestions are welcome.

((((Pixies))))

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Have you ever thought about medatation, when I start getting the way you've described a even just a few minutes does me wonders.
Someone gave me a great book "The Three Minute Medatator" 30 simple ways to unwind your mind while enhaning your emotional intelligence, by David Harp and beleive it or not the forward was written by Ben and Jerry

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Well, I'll take a quick stab at it.

The way I see it, you have simply been pushing yourself too hard for too long. The extra course at school this semester may have been just what it took to push you over the top.

You are getting the sleep that you would normally get but you aren't getting the rest and relaxation.

Let's see how close I am with this one. You go from work to school, grab something to eat quickly between the two. After class you go home and do more work before you go to bed. Or if it's not work then you do some schoolwork, or sometimes both.

When you do hit the pillow you are thinking about what you have done during the day and what you will be doing tomorrow. I'm betting that you are thinking about those things while you are asleep as well, as stupid as that may sound.

Your weekends are filled with more classwork and also work that you've brought home from the job, right?

I think you need some good, quality "osuche time" where you relax and enjoy life without thinking or worrying about school and work. And I think you need it on a more regular basis, not just every once in awhile. You've been on one hell of a pace for quite some time now osuche. Probably too simple of a solution but I really think that your body just isn't getting the chance to recover from your stressful job and classes and it's just sort of deciding to do it whenever it wants to.

Just my thoughts on it.

(((((((Osuche)))))))

Time for me to try again to get the sleep that I'm needing.

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Yep, I know it sounds obvious but you are suffering from stress.

All of your complaints are classic indicators.

You need to realise that an ineffectual Osuche is no help to anyone and that in this case, putting yourself higher up your priority list is not being selfish, it will actually benefit everyone.

You've said in the past that working out helps you to relax and while that's a concept completely lost on me, perhaps finding a half hour a day to do some exercise will get you back on track. Alternatively, some other kind of relaxation technique for just ten minutes a day can make a difference.

I know you think you don't have time, but at the moment you're probably spending more than 10 minutes a day trying to sort out things you've messed up, apologising to people you've upset with your anger, or beating yourself up about how you aren't being the best Osuche you can be.

For everyone's benefit, you have to put yourself closer to the top of your list for a while, and if anyone questions it (which they won't - it's sometimes depressing to see how the world does NOT stop spinning when you stop pedalling for a while) you need to explain that you need to do this in order to function.

The more useful a person you are in a family/ business/ whatever, the more important it is that you look after yourself. Take this from someone who has recently learned what it means for someone else's very existence to depend on you.

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Thanks, everyone. I appreciate the perspective - I have very little of it myself right now.

Winston - I work with someone who is a medatative coach. Perhaps I need to get him to give me some tips.

IowaMan - I know you're right, but I've just been worried it's something more complex because stress has never felt this way to me before.

Lou - Your baby is lucky to have someone as sweet and perceptive as you to depend on. (((Lou)))

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I think men talk to women so they can sleep with them and women sleep with men so they can talk to them. ~ Jay McInerney

Osuche- perpective is exactly what you need. I can say this because I am in the midst of trying to gain some myself.

Step back and try to view where you are at more objectively. Look at where you can honestly give less so you can retain some time for yourself. I always say there is nothing I can shirk off on but truth be told I give 150% when giving 100% is really enough. Learn to stop at enough and not continue to put so much pressure on yourself. If you are anything like me people respect you for the way you do everything to the best of your ability. They won't think less of you for just completing the task.

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