I need some advice.

I'm not new here, but I wanted to change my name/profile so you wouldn't know who I am. Please don't ask.

My issue is this. I have been married for 14 years now, and we have two children. Our sex life still remains wonderful and fulfilling, nothing missing.

But lately I have been fantasizing about a few things - namely about giving and receiving a handjob w/another guy, having my cock sucked by a guy, and actually sucking a guys cock myself.

I don't have any interest in being "gay" - I don't find men attractive at all, and certainly don't want any anal play or kissing.

I'm just intrigued by the idea of playing (jerking/sucking) with a cock.

I have NO idea how to tell this to my wife - I know she would flip out. I'm very outspoken against gays (that's another post) - and I know she would see this as me being "gay". I don't know if I should tell her.

The urge is there though, to experiment. And it's strong.

I don't have any specific questions, but am looking for any suggestions that any of you may have to offer (male or female).

Thank you for reading.
A.C.