Previously titled I Got Some Dick Today

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Dapharoah69
The King of Erotica

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Chapter 1:

I’m heartbroken. So heartbroken I didn't know if I was coming, cumming or goddamn going ugh!

Can’t believe it happened again. Every time I meet the One he turns into the One who killed it for everyone else. Another failed relationship gone down the tubes, which was embarrassing as hell because I was always clowing my friends about not keeping successful relationship and I couldn't and didn't know how to keep a man myself.

Why were black men so whorish and so disloyal? Has 400 years of oppression and slavery distorted their mentality?

Do they always must have what they can't have?

Do we really hate each other to the point where we can't love each other?

He was about five feet 5, thuggish with those rasta thick dreads that melted your heart. But the way he walked around my crib farting like it's nothing turned me off. He was a real niggah in every sense of the word.

He was a go-getter, determined and held a good job.

He loved wearing sagging jeans and unlaced boots with a skull cap sitting like so on his head, sort of slanted, like the rapper T.I. wore his hats. He had to tie his dreads down to wear hats, which always baffled me because when we wore hats he hardly looked me in the face when we interacted with each other.

He had a gorgeous smile and a fantastic d***k.

My God.

The way his 11 inch cut caramel d***k filled me up had me cumming without touching myself. The way he slapped my booty cheeks and growled in my ear and buried his face between my chin and neck every time he had to cum set me on fire...I love when he pounded my a***e, growling that it felt better than p***y. He would shudder and moan so sensually and it turned me the hell on and he would pull out leave me sweating and panting in the doggy style and make me push his nut from my bussy while slapping my ass calling me all sorts of dirty b***hes and he would suck it up and it would gross me out but one look in his eyes made me kiss him and swallow my juices with him.

His sex game was so up to par my knees buckled into my p***y at the very thought of him like I was a Vietnam Vet remembering a 70's war in 2010.

Now I was missing him.

Now I wanted him back.

He was my lover. My all. My addiction. I put my all into a man that only wanted me as an option, not a priority.

Maybe I just hated being alone. Maybe him leaving reminded me that I was the kinda niggah that had to have a man, that had to be in a relationship, that had to have someone to cuddle with, that had to have someone telling me I'm handsome and beautiful and now it was sucking the life outta me like I was a pair of balls and life was a powerful nut he used to wipe on my face, slapping that fat d***k on my tongue and nose...

Oh, God. The pulse in my p***y was activated remembering. Him.

Devastated , I looked at my watch I realize that a lot of time has gone by since we broke up. An hour to be exact. An hour that felt like ten goddamn years. I wanted to vomit imagining another bottom trick enjoying the comfort and aggression of Grade A D***k.

His clothing and shoes are still neatly in the closet. I situated his attire to my specifications, which caused a rift in our relationship. He liked to be sloppy and leave his beer cans where he finished them, even though he didn't live with me. He had his own crib he never invited me too, and was the type of Niggah that loved and had to run the ship. Had to tell his Bottom what to do. Cook to feed him, clean to please him that suck and f***k him to sleep the way a mother burps a newborn.

He got Crazy in Psycho Ville when he got drunk. But I never tripped because Drunk D***k was the Best D***k and lasted all night long. I just hated waking up covered with his puke. I hated it with a passion. I never said anything about it, because he got an attitude and became stubborn and unresponsive.

One of the reasons we didn't make it was because of his homeboys that flocked to my goddamn crib during game days. He always invited his boys over, even when we were supposed to be spending quality time.

And they ate two months worth of grocery in twenty minutes while watching ESPN or the NFL Draft and I got tired of my light and water bill going up because ungrateful thugs were in my home turning it into the One Stop Piss
Stop and neither one of the muthaf***kahs forked over any kind of cash, nor said thank you for eating up my s***t. Piss all over the toilet seat and floors and my man Johnson, well ex man, made me clean it up, saying his boys were "Guests."

I was always behind him, cleaning and b***hing becasue the more I b***hed, the longer and deeper he'd f***k me when we made up adn that's when he got his revenge. When I was cumming and shivering riding his thick pole.

At first he loved someone that cleaned behind him but my constant nagging broke him down. DL men hated nagging, reminded them too much of a woman and a man was with a man for obvious reasons. Felt too much like a marriage to him and he already said there would be a cold day in hell before he married me or a man period. It hurt to hear, but I was a d***k sick b***h and I didn't wanna push him away so I transitioned inside his f***ked views.

Plus I walked in on him sitting on my toilet taking a s***t (with the door open, he got off on me smeeling that foul s***t WTF!) talking to his ex baby mama on the phone, with tears falling down his face telling me he was using my money to pay his child support, and that he enjoyed their love making session (in my bed).

He actually f***ked the pop tart on my one thousand thread count sheets while I worked.

I always wondered why he washed the sheets and nothing else.

Now I knew.

I had to go. Plus the Hoe's child ain't even his son. He just called the boy his son becasue the boy's dady doing life without for armed robbery and rape. He raped her ass and that's how that baby was conceived, with his big headed ass.

But how do I get over him when I loved him so much. It’s been twenty minutes since I asked him to leave and he did, calling me every name in the book.

That I was a b***h.

That my ass wasn’t as good as he moaned it to be in the sheets.

I was like “Oh, yea? Then why does it make you come in ten minutes flat?”

He seemed to get quiet when I asked.

Then he lashed out at me again when he tried to f***k me and I pushed him on the floor.

He jumped at me, slapping me in the face and snatching me by my Philly ‘fro. I was scared for my life.

He pushed me on the floor, unzipped his pants and said, “Suck my d***k,” and I said, “Hell, no! Get out my house.”

“You ain’t g’on suck this d***k?”

“Hell, no!”

He pissed on me, hot, stinky piss. I was so grossed out.

Angrily, I was on my feet instantly, picking up the phone to call the police. No he didn’t just disrespect me!

Did I look like the f***king toilet and he snatched the phone cord from the wall and started whipping with it.

“You’re my b***h!” His eyes flashed dangerously as the sting of the cord brought tears to my eyes.

I was on the couch, crawled in a ball and I was screaming, “I thought you loved me,” and when I said it he slowly stopped and stood there looking guilty.

His pants sliding down his ass, he put his face in his hands and lowered himself to his knees and I hated him so much.

I was wide eyed, slowly reaching for my cell phone on the night stand so I could call for help and he looked up with a sadness I had never saw before and he said, "That's how my Daddy used to do my Mama for years. Make her suck his d***k and when she said no he pissed on her and beat her with belts…I’m sorry. I’m no better than him."

“Baby…” I had a pint of empathy because that’s the first time he opened up to me about his past. I tried to hold him but he said, “I must go. You told me to leave and I am.”

“Baby…”

He looked in my eyes and told me the truth about every thing. Jesus, I was NOT ready for the truth, at least not at that moment. But he gave it to me blood raw. Uncut and uncensored.

He said he f***ked other men in my house when I was gone.

I died inside, drying up like a raisin.

He had a threesome in my bath tub last week with two of my closest friends.

I doubled over from the revelation. It stung so badly.
That he was using me for my ass and car.

That he only viewed me as a Ho. Because his boys claimed they f***ked me.
And they didn’t.

I hadn’t had sex for two years up to the point I met him at Club Metropolis, 10th Street, Downtown Miami.

I had to get out of here and breathe. It was still sun light out and I would just walk around, get some air and clear my head as I debate whether or not to move out of this house I shared with Mama.

Well, actually she had another apartment, but she let me take over the house. And even though I paid all the bills, the insurance on the property and the utilities, she wouldn’t put my name on the house. So I felt like she was pimping me. Paying rent and the yearly taxes. So I guess I was just tired of paying on what others owned.

I wanted my own house with my own name on my own bills. I was in college, but I didn’t take it seriously because, going through twelve years of school killed me and the thought o four more years of college was just too much.

I hadn’t even been in a month. Probably flunking my classes and if I didn’t show my face I would probably be dropped and that would suck because then I would have to pay back the loans.
Why couldn’t college be free like public school?

Shaking away thought of school, I grabbed my coat and I walked outside and locked the door. My cell rang.

It was my boy from Maryland.

“How’s everything.”

“It’s over, man. I broke up with him.” I could hardly say it.

It chocked me up thinking about it.

I simply hung up the phone and turned it off...

Sadly, I was walking down the street with no sense of purpose. The pep in my step has shriveled. The dope boys were out and looking guarded, yet slinging rock and dime bags.

They were running up and down the block handling their transactions.
Unbeknownst, hot, scorching tears fell down my face. I shuddered without him. My love. My man. My Thug.

Tight red shorts under my jeans made my ass look fuller and bigger but right now that was the furthest thing on my mind.

I didn’t feel as sexy as I felt being with someone I thought respected me.
This thug niggah kept starting at me and I rolled my eyes, wiped away tears and kept walking.

He had dreads.


When I got back home I called my boy back and apologized for b***hin' up when the subject of my ex came up. He forgave me.

“Man I can’t believe ya’ll broke up. Seemed like you two were made for each other.”

“I will never be involved or have sex with another man as long as I live.”

I hung up the phone and vowed it on my life.

A few days later I was logging on the computer, on cloud nine. Because something wonderful happened. I’m still geeked about it, trying to formulate in my head the occurrence. I was about to burst with zeal.

I logged onto Yahoo messenger and my boy from Maryland was on line and I just had to tell somebody my good news.

I hit him up with a BUZZ. Then I typed:

down_souff_nigg [8:06]: I got some d***k today, Dawg

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: damn, that's wasusp

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: wassup*

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: lol

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: it was good too

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: I mean really good

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: i wish i could've been there

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: the thug niggah had me crying and shyt

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: loll

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: damn

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: When I tell you he dug me out he dug me out

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: thug dope boy from the block

down_souff_nigg [8:06 P.M.]: never knew he was interested in me

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: damn

blackinches1345 [8:06 P.M.]: so how'd u find out?

down_souff_nigg [8:07 P.M.]: He approached me and asked to use my
phone

down_souff_nigg [8:07 P.M.]: so I let him

blackinches1345 [8:07 P.M.]: ok

down_souff_nigg [8:07 P.M.]: What I didn’t know was he dialed his number with my phone so he could have it

down_souff_nigg [8:07 P.M.]: And around about 6 pm today I get a call from an unusual number

down_souff_nigg [8:08 P.M.]: and I normally don't answer but I did and he was like this Frederick and I was like yea, dawg and he was like this Joe, the niggah who borrowed your phone and I was stuck

down_souff_nigg [8:08 P.M.]: cause the niggah is fine as f***k, real hardcore, the type who don't show no emotion

blackinches1345 [8:08 P.M.]: ok

down_souff_nigg [8:08 P.M.]: So I was like yea sup and he was like I hope you don't mind me calling my phone so I can have your number

down_souff_nigg [8:08 P.M.]: and I was like Why? A little violated and mad

down_souff_nigg [8:09 P.M.]: and he was like, Damn, Dawg, I’ma just say it and u better not go lipping off

down_souff_nigg [8:09 P.M.]: I wanna tap that p***y I like how that ass be looking in them red shorts and your pants kinda sagging and s***t and I’ve been watching you, checking you out you be staying to yourself so do u get down?

down_souff_nigg [8:10 P.M.]: And I was like No. He hung up and about ten minutes later he came knocking on my front door. I answered and saw him and he asked, anybody here and I was like Niggah, naw! Get the f***k from my house Dawg I don't like dope around me

down_souff_nigg [8:11 P.M.]: and he came inside, pushed me on the chair and was like you know you want this d***k up in that ass you be walking around looking good and s***t, Dawg all I want to do is f***k you. Plus I read your ‘lil thing in the BGC Forum, I read your stories I don't ever comment but I be reading it and checking out your pictures every time I log on.

blackinches1345 [8:11 P.M.]: damn

blackinches1345 [8:11 P.M.]: this belongs in a book

down_souff_nigg [8:11 P.M.]: and I was like No but he got on top of me and Dawg I was ready to fight because I never been approached like that... and Dawg—the minute he pulled my shorts down and dug his tongue deep in my a***e I was like we can do this

blackinches1345 [8:11 P.M.]: LOL, damn

down_souff_nigg [8:11 P.M.]: He kissed me Dawg I tell you he kissed me like I was the most beautiful man

down_souff_nigg [8:12 P.M.]: I was stuck Dawg I was like God this cant be happening

blackinches1345 [8:12 P.M.]: damn

down_souff_nigg [8:12 P.M.]: He saw tears fall from my eyes and he was like damn baby what’s wrong why you crying Dawg and I told him Look I haven’t been licked, f***ked or made love to in nearly a year and I miss it and I just broke up with my dude he is so lame that’s why I never gave him no ass I don’t let lames f***k me.

blackinches1345 [8:12 P.M.]: wow

down_souff_nigg [8:13 P.M.]: and he took off all my clothes Dawg he just pulled out his d*ck...he had on a Dan Marino Miami Dolphins jersey, sagging South Pole jeans, tube socks unlaced Timberlands and long ass dread locks, they looked silky too, he's got prison tats on his arms, sexy ass body and looking at him I was like DAMN IM ABOUT TO LET A COMPLETE STRANGER FU*K! I don’t know where his d***k's been and I didn’t give a f***k, that’s what condoms are for... and he massaged me and was talking to me, like asking me what’s my last name and how long I been in the game he turned out to be a really cool niggah

down_souff_nigg [8:13 P.M.]: that he was DownLo that he only f***ked one niggah his name was Terrence but he died in a car wreck and he closed himself off to anything bisexual

down_souff_nigg [8:13 P.M.]: that Hoes love him, yet the niggah was talking to me like long lost friends

down_souff_nigg [8:14 P.M.]: I was like Please don’t let it end then he spread my ass and he ate me out for damn near twenty minutes, asking me was he doing it right, did it feel good and he was slapping my ass and he was like Damn shawty you got a phat ass damn and he pulled out a condom, put it on, put some lotion deep in my ass by fingering me until I was throwing it back on two fingers

down_souff_nigg [8:14 P.M.]: and he was like Damn shawty I gotta get this hot pus*y

blackinches1345 [8:15 P.M.]: damn

down_souff_nigg [8:15 P.M.]: and he slid up in me slow Dawg, he took my head and snatched it in his face, making look at him and he was like I wanna look in your eyes (d***k going in me deeper) as I f***k you damn b***h that p***y is so tight damn Dawg this s***t tighter than p***y Dawg

down_souff_nigg [8:16 P.M.]: and he grinded in my tunnel Dawg, pulling his pants to his ankles and I looked in the mirror and all i seen was nuts bouncing and his ass cheeks opening and closing and he f***ked the dog s***t outta me

down_souff_nigg [8:16 P.M.]: and the rest is history

down_souff_nigg [8:16 P.M.]: now he said he want to be the one tapping it and that he better not see another niggah f***king me or he will f***k em up

down_souff_nigg [8:16 P.M.]: and yea Dawg, I can say he got the ass on lock and I’m loving it

blackinches1345 [8:17 P.M.]: damn

blackinches1345 [8:17 P.M.]: so u got a boy?

down_souff_nigg [8:17 P.M.]: he supposed to be coming over around 10 PM. But check this, Dawg. When I had got out the shower, he called me and he said, Dawg, slide your finger inside you and taste it for Daddy over the phone…”

down_souff_nigg [8:17 P.M.]: and I did

blackinches1345 [8:17 P.M.]: lol damn

blackinches1345 [8:17 P.M.]: that's hot as f***k

down_souff_nigg [8:18 P.M.]: and he was like Ima beat your ass, b***h and I was like why and he said, that’s my ass, not yours I’m supposed to be sucking that p***y off your fingers not you and I was laughing and he was like that’s funny and I was like Hell yea niggah and he said you a man? And I was like Yea

down_souff_nigg [8:19 P.M.]: and he said Frederick Ima f***k the man into a b***h when I come get that p***y tonight, I don't care if your Mama ir brother is there he said Dawg Ima put duct tape over your mouth and Ima suck on your neck while I beat that hole up and that’ll be hot knowing your people is there and I want to see how

down_souff_nigg [8:19 P.M.]: quiet you can be

down_souff_nigg [8:19 P.M.]: now how was that for today?

blackinches1345 [8:19 P.M.]: lol wow

blackinches1345 [8:19 P.M.]: that's wassup

blackinches1345 [8:19 P.M.]: that's a good ass day

down_souff_nigg [8:20 P.M.]: Hell f***king yea

down_souff_nigg [8:20 P.M.]: I'm so happy right now dawg

blackinches1345 [8:20 P.M.]: lol i know

down_souff_nigg [8:21 P.M.]: He made a niggah blush when he said Frederick you are so beautiful to me dawg, Im not a mushy niggah but every time I saw you coming up the block my d***k got hard and I never stepped to you because you reminded me of my dawg who died, he's the only man i ever f***ked and I loved him and never got to tell him and he was like Frederick I will shoot a b***h over you, I don't want nobody knowing I boned you, can we keep that to ourselves, thats for us to know, I don't want other niggahs knowing why you're going to tell

down_souff_nigg [8:22 P.M.]: them NO ya'll cant f***k and Frederick Ima be standing there with a discreet smile on my face and every time I get that hole I am not going to shower for a few because I love the way you smell babay and I just hugged him and he was like you my b***h dawg and I got your back

blackinches1345 [8:22 P.M.]: damn

blackinches1345 [8:23 P.M.]: that got my d***k hard and got me choked up a lil lol

down_souff_nigg [8:24 P.M.]: LOL

blackinches1345 [8:24 P.M.]: lol

blackinches1345 [8:24 P.M.]: i want some dude to approach me

I can’t find a date. I mean, really. No matter what I do or who does it for me I can’t get hooked up with anybody. Maybe because I’m too picky. I don’t do thugs, cyber thugs, internet thugs or dope boys. I don’t do men without a f***king job. I don’t do men w***ead Black Inches magazine but never picked up a newspaper or People.

I am reading over the instant message conversation I had with black inches. It took place last year, when I met a thug boy from the block. Figuring I was limiting myself I let myself get caught up in a tornado of problems. I fell in love. He beat every night. Sent me to bed coming and quivering. Cooked for me and vice-versa. But then something happened. Pouring a tonic, I took it to the head and fell asleep, reading the second conversation.


blackinches1345 [11:15 P.M.]: hey

down_souff_nigg [11:15 P.M.]: SUP DAWG!!

blackinches1345 [11:15 P.M.]: just chilling man, you?

down_souff_nigg [11:16 P.M.]: Same here dawg same here

down_souff_nigg [11:16 P.M.]: A niggah just chilling, just got in from the Dolphin Mall, buying some clothes off the Clearance Rack at the Echo store

blackinches1345 [11:17 P.M.]: cool

down_souff_nigg [11:17 P.M.]: So how have you been since I last told
you about my new THUG boyfriend?

down_souff_nigg [11:17 P.M.]: LOL

down_souff_nigg [11:18 P.M.]: )

blackinches1345 [11:18 P.M.]: lol just been relaxing man, on chill mode slim

down_souff_nigg [11:19 P.M.]: Are you aiight?

down_souff_nigg [11:19 P.M.]: Like how are you really doing?

blackinches1345 [11:19 P.M.]: I'm good man, just relaxing though

down_souff_nigg [11:19 P.M.]: Is it a good time to chat with you, cause if you're busy I could hit you up later

blackinches1345 [11:19 P.M.]: naw, we can talk

down_souff_nigg [11:20 P.M.]: Cool

down_souff_nigg [11:20 P.M.]: I got a little problem though

blackinches1345 [11:20 P.M.]: ok...which is?

down_souff_nigg [11:20 P.M.]: I think I'm catching feelings for ole boy

blackinches1345 [11:20 P.M.]: awww

down_souff_nigg [11:20 P.M.]: I know I know its probably his d***k talking to me or for me

down_souff_nigg [11:20 P.M.]: But man he is cool dawg, he's all hard and s***t, I see how he talks to other people, since he sell weed

blackinches1345 [11:20 P.M.]: yeah

down_souff_nigg [11:21 P.M.]: but at the same time he tries to get mad with me and he can't, he wind up punching the wall

blackinches1345 [11:21 P.M.]: lol awww

down_souff_nigg [11:21 P.M.]: He tries to tell me he don't care if I come around or not but yesterday I was at Moms

down_souff_nigg [11:21 P.M.]: I was vacuuming her carpet with this WET VAC bulls***t

down_souff_nigg [11:21 P.M.]: I was home alone, he knows her schedule, he knows she works from 2 til 10

blackinches1345 [11:21 P.M.]: yeah

down_souff_nigg [11:22 P.M.]: he shows up in his lil' Dodge, fixed up with the red candy paint and the lil' booming system, the type of s***t that makes your statues tremble on the shelves

blackinches1345 [11:22 P.M.]: lol wow

down_souff_nigg [11:23 P.M.]: and before I even opened the door my a***e started throbbing and I started salivating at the mouth so I ran to the door and I opened it and he got this lil cocky swagger, walking all up to me with those silky dreads and those pants hanging like monkeys

down_souff_nigg [11:23 P.M.]: he was like "Hey, Babay" And I was like "Please don't turn into ugly ass Hurricane Chris."

down_souff_nigg [11:23 P.M.]: "Stop b***hin'," he says and when he gets up to me I notice he's holding something behind his back

down_souff_nigg [11:23 P.M.]: So I am like, "OK, are you gonna come inside, Mr. DownLo?"

blackinches1345 [11:24 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [11:24 P.M.]: When he comes inside, he turns around and backs up so I cant see what he's holding and I get all giddy and s***t, like, "Dayum, niggah what is that behind your back."

down_souff_nigg [11:24 P.M.]: He gives me this devilish grin. "Your ass."

down_souff_nigg [11:24 P.M.]: I was blushing like a high school b***h. "What?"

down_souff_nigg [11:24 P.M.]: I'm smiling now, very big. Like the Kool-aid man.

down_souff_nigg [11:24 P.M.]: He pulls a long stemmed rose out and he suddenly had this angry look on his face, saying F***K now I'm buying this f***k niggah flowers. He tried to tear it up and I snatched it back, laughing. Then he kissed my lips, mad at the world.

down_souff_nigg [11:25 P.M.]: I melted dawg I sunk on mom's couch, the Wet Vac turned off but the carpet kinda wet so my bare feet was soaked

blackinches1345 [11:25 P.M.]: awww

down_souff_nigg [11:25 P.M.]: He then pulled this card from his jacket pocket. He was dressed in Echo down to the damn sneakers

down_souff_nigg [11:25 P.M.]: I was going to read it, but when I started to he told me, "Where's your bathroom?"

down_souff_nigg [11:25 P.M.]: I said around the corner, up the hall, first door on the right

down_souff_nigg [11:25 P.M.]: He leaves

blackinches1345 [11:26 P.M.]: yeah

down_souff_nigg [11:26 P.M.]: and I waited to read the letter. I turned on the Wet Vac and went back to doing my little cleaning thang.

down_souff_nigg [11:26 P.M.]: When he came back he was like, "So..."

down_souff_nigg [11:26 P.M.]: and I was like "So...what?" over the vacuum.

down_souff_nigg [11:26 P.M.]: He unplugged it and slapped my booty real hard and I was like, Niggah...and he smiled again and he asked, "Did you read it?"

down_souff_nigg [11:26 P.M.]: I stood up and walked up to him, put my hands around his neck and he grabbed my ass, hand full of grade A ass and he was like, "Shawty I'm being serious, I want you to read the letter

down_souff_nigg [11:27 P.M.]: And I said, "Nah, not yet." And I kissed him. He kissed me back, but not like he normally does, which is all passion and s***t, he was holding back so I got on my knees and pulled his d***k out and started chopping him up. Now he gets hard instantly, but today he didn't and I was crushed so I stand up and he hugs me tight dawg, real tight and he said, "Dawg read the letter. Where's your bathroom?"

down_souff_nigg [11:28 P.M.]: And now my guard is up and I'm like, "Dayum baby I just told you."

down_souff_nigg [11:28 P.M.]: He wiped his face, said his allergies were kicking in. He was showing emotion and he was hiding it, I smiled inside and he was like when I come back please have read the letter. I hate writing, I don't write but you need to know how I am feeling. It took me about three hours to write that s***t.

down_souff_nigg [11:28 P.M.]: And he and all that good d***k vanishes back into the bathroom

blackinches1345 [11:29 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [11:29 P.M.]: So I sat down, pulled it out...

So I sat down, pulled it out. Smelled like Fahrenheit Cologne. That's my favorite cologne. The letter was on light North Carolina Blue stationary. My favorite color is light blue

down_souff_nigg [11:29 P.M.]: On the folded letter were the song lyrics, "There are times when I look above and beyond..."

down_souff_nigg [11:29 P.M.]: That's my favorite Janet song, Together Again

down_souff_nigg [11:30 P.M.]: I'm smiling, right. BIG

blackinches1345 [11:30 P.M.]: aww

down_souff_nigg [11:30 P.M.]: I opened it up and the letter read (bare with me let me type it word for word)

blackinches1345 [11:30 P.M.]: ok

down_souff_nigg [11:31 P.M.]: Frederick, bare with me. I have never felt the way I feel about a niggah the way I feel about you. As you should know I used your favorite color and your favorite fragrance when I wrote this letter but if you can look closely you'll see something dried on the paper, I jacked my d***k and used my nut when I wiped it across your name. Because you're so beautiful I wish God woulda made you a female so I could marry you and you can have my kids. You're my soul mate dawg. I can't breathe with out you. I mean yea right when Toni Braxton made that song I was like B***h Right Im still breathing, but now through you, missing you when you are not near, when I constantly think about you, wondering what you're doing and if you're happy when you're off doing your book thang I can now say I can't breathe. I be about to go crazy.

down_souff_nigg [11:32 P.M.]: I have never felt love or admiration for a niggah. I mean real men don't do that, right? Or so I thought. How could I not admire you? I admired you from the first day you walked up the block with those red shorts gripping all that ass. Damn baby you got ass baby and you got some good muthaf***king ass Frederick. But what made me seek you out was the day you walked up the block to go home and you were on the phone snapping at some dumb niggah and you had tears falling from your eyes and I got really angry, I was going to snatch your phone and check that f***g*ot ass niggah you were going with at the time and when you walked past me, I checked out that ass of course but your next words made my eyes feel like convicted felons: "All niggahs want is my ass! That's all ya'll think about. I go to bed every night in tears wondering if somebody will ever love my heart before my ass! I hate my booty I should get a knife and cut that s***t off!" By then you vanished up the block but I knew then I would go after you. I just didn't know how. So I asked to use your phone a few weeks later. And the rest is history. I'm Gangsta, yea to the c***rs I'ma Thug Niggah, like Pac its tattooed on my chest and abs, which you know, because every time you chopped me up (which I love, babay you have given me the best head and ass of my entire life), you see it. Frederick I think of my dead boy when I look in your eyes

down_souff_nigg [11:33 P.M.]: [OK at this point tears is falling down my face, I had to stop reading for a few minutes while it sunk in]

down_souff_nigg [11:34 P.M.]: He was a beautiful man, on the football team, all around player. He died very tragically. I sold dope to some fools and tried to fu*k them over with the loot, since they were from outta town, I think L.A. W***emembers? They knew how much I liked ole boy because he was with me when I made the transaction. Because of my stupidity, they murdered him and left me a lil note about never fuc*ing over a man's money. I have to live with that everyday of my life

down_souff_nigg [11:35 P.M.]: I closed myself off, started being this Shrek green Ogre, this tyrant who took no sh*t and represented no one. I never lived by codes and mottos, I don't even play games or Playstation. I'ma real ass niggah who was all about the USDA Young Jeezy type sh*t, g'on and shake your ass b*tch I'ma throw this money. I had to look my dead boy's Mama in the face and tell her the truth about the death of her son. She hates me. With a passion, and she lives right around the corner from me. Stacia. The fat b***h who drives the green Camry.

down_souff_nigg [11:37 P.M.]: I never thought I'd love again or open up. But when I met you, when I finally stepped to you it changed me. You have his eyes and his smile. When you talk I'm reminded of him, it’s like the Good Lord (is he real) gave me another chance. Dawg I'm feeling you. I want you to be mine. Yea I'm all DownLo and I am far from some Put you to Bed niggah like these fake ass R&B Crooners are, but I'm gritty, I'm raw and babay ( I know you hate that word, dawg but I like it, can you tolerate my differences)

down_souff_nigg [11:39 P.M.]: I wanna be with you. Be my shawty. Be my niggah. I can’t express myself very well. I know, I mean I understand if you don't want me. I'm just a hustler who dreams a lot. You are published in a couple magazines. I got both the short stories. I read em both. You are gifted. Your talent for writing from a woman's point of view, a man's point of view turns me the f***k on. You're beautiful. I like looking at you. The other night when I snuck you in my sister's house, since she's outta town for two weeks, and you slept with me, I slid my d***k up

down_souff_nigg [11:40 P.M.]: in you and fell asleep. I didn't wanna fu*k you. I didn't wanna make love to you. My d*ck is like a dog, territorial. I needed to feel your warmth to heal me. I needed to feel your body next to mine. I watched you sleep. My nuts killed me cause my d*ck stayed hard ALL NIGHT. All night dawg, not once did it think about going down. You were so at peace when you sleep. I had put my hand on your heart beat. And then dawg I started to cum, a deep ball busting jolt dawg and we weren't even fuc*ing. Your ass was so warm and so tight that sh*t has never happened to me before. It felt so good to feel my d*ck pump into your ass, with the condom to catch the seeds. We should go get an HIV test together so I can spend a lot of time coming in that ass, that's my pu*sy, niggah. I think at that point I realized, Damn Bryson Daniels I think I love Frederick. I will hurt a niggah over you. I will protect you. If we break up next week I will still be in your life. You are my friend. I will not let some niggah destroy your dreams.

down_souff_nigg [11:42 P.M.]: Yea you did a porno before and I saw it, so what. Destiny was your stage name and that is a thing of the past, didn't they realize you were going to wake up one day and smell the coffee? Fu*k them! Fu*k any niggah who always throw that porn in your face. They grimy and miserable and they are jealous that you made it in life by leaving that sh*t alone. I see what the public don't. They saw your ass, your body, heard your moans, saw your pleasure that was really your misery. I'ma tell you what I saw. A young man doing what he had to do to survive. I saw a scared man. I saw a sexy Bahamian niggah who needed love. I saw hurt. I saw betrayal. I saw that your heart wasn't really in it. You're too beautiful, Frederick. Thank God you left the porn business alone! I saw all those things. I'ma end this letter with

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: fu*k who don’t like you. Bryson Daniels is raw and real. I never told a niggah or the Hoes my real name, Frederick. I tell you. I will call you my rebirth. From here on out your new name is Rebirth. No one is to call you this but me, if I hear anybody else call you this I will buss a cap in that ass and I'm trigger happy. I own armory I won’t tell you about. You are my Rebirth. I lost my niggah Trevor to guns and my deceit. And believe me I prayed to god to forgive me. And every time you smile. I am Reborn.

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: That's God telling me I forgive you. And when I feel you on top of me, giving me all that good ass and your heart, I feel Trevor telling me he is happy I found the one who changed my life forever. I am not going to front. I love you. I love making love to you. I love eating that booty. You should see your face every time my tongue ravishes that hole. You grip the pillow and you ass cheeks f***k my tongue. Let me stop. Bye, niggah.

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: Your boy. Your niggah.

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: Bryson Daniels.

down_souff_nigg [11:45 P.M.]: Yea, my handwriting is f***ked but I am not Aaliyah so ain’t no Four Page S***t popping with this niggah.

down_souff_nigg [11:46 P.M.]: When I was done reading I was in tears dawg I dropped the letter on the floor and he took me by the arm and pulled me up to my feet...

down_souff_nigg [11:46 P.M.]: When I was done reading I was in tears dawg I dropped the letter on the floor and he took me by the arm and pulled me up to my feet and he held me so tight dawg and something terrible happened, he was whispering to me and Mama walked in the door, home early from work and she don't like nobody in the house when she's not home but she took one look at me and Bryson and saw him comforting me and he said, "Ma'am, I know what you're thinking but I love your son."

down_souff_nigg [11:47 P.M.]: And she looked at him and smiled and she said, "Hey, I don't see nothing," winked at me and she vanished into her room. Now I'm out the closet with mama and you know what, she loves me more now than ever

blackinches1345 [11:47 P.M.]: wow

blackinches1345 [11:48 P.M.]: u done f***ked up my typing lol

down_souff_nigg [11:48 P.M.]: LOL

down_souff_nigg [11:48 P.M.]: Imagine how I feel. I mean this niggah is FINE. FINE! Makes every niggah on BGC look like shyt

blackinches1345 [11:48 P.M.]: naw, but that's wassup yo

down_souff_nigg [11:48 P.M.]: but at the same time he is generous and he is really trying to be a good dude to me

down_souff_nigg [11:49 P.M.]: I thought he was gonna be all up in my ass and never think about my heart but the night he slid up in me and just held me and watched me sleep

down_souff_nigg [11:49 P.M.]: What can i say to that dawg, I'm scared of Bryson I don't know if I want this dawg, I mean it feels too good to be tru, nah mean?

blackinches1345 [11:50 P.M.]: just let it wash over you

down_souff_nigg [11:50 P.M.]: But I'm falling for him. We see each other everyday. He was the one who took me to the Echo store and spent $467.89 on me buying clothes. I didn't want the clothes, I didn't want that s***t at all I do my own shyt and buy my own s***t, I don't pull a Beyonce Say my name Bills Bills Bills fit

down_souff_nigg [11:51 P.M.]: but he was like, Nah Shawty, you my b***h, my niggah and I don't want my niggah walking around with bulls***t on. Lemme buy the clothes while I'm in Gerald Levert mode."

down_souff_nigg [11:52 P.M.]: All I could do was laugh, and then he carried all the bags dawg! How cool is that?? He didn't let me carry one bag. He even too my cell phone from me and clipped it on his hip, and my sister called, he put all the bags down, blocking the walkway (people had to angrily wak around him) and he answered and was like, "Who is this calling my shawty?"

down_souff_nigg [11:52 P.M.]: And I heard my sister say, "Boy that's MY BROTHER PHONE F***K NIGGAH WHERE MY BIG BROTHAH?"

down_souff_nigg [11:52 P.M.]: And he was laughing, saying, "Nah, lil sis, sorry. This Bryson."

down_souff_nigg [11:52 P.M.]: I could hear her wailing voice loud and clear. "Oh, boy you almost got cussed out."

down_souff_nigg [11:53 P.M.]: He has the most beautiful smile. He said, "Aiight, Ma. Damn. Don't pull them tampons out just yet. Aunt Flow is still terrorizing your walls..."

down_souff_nigg [11:53 P.M.]: I was on the floor, laughing. So he hands me the phone and my sister is like, "F***k him, big bubba I don't like him."

down_souff_nigg [11:54 P.M.]: I had a good day dawg.

blackinches1345 [11:54 P.M.]: lol that's wassup

down_souff_nigg [11:54 P.M.]: LOL let me stop rambling

blackinches1345 [11:54 P.M.]: it's cool

down_souff_nigg [11:55 P.M.]: He called me about twenty minutes ago and said he wants to sleep inside me tonight. And I was like nah. So he said, "How that ass doing?" And I was like "Its all good." and he was like "I'ma spank that hole cuz its been a bad b***h," and I was laughing and he burst out screaming "F***K NIGGAH UR LAUGH TURNS ME ON."
down_souff_nigg [11:55 P.M.]: But I aint g'on see him tonight. I'll see him tomorrow, give him a chance to yearn and long for me, ya kno.

down_souff_nigg [11:55 P.M.]: LOL

down_souff_nigg [11:55 P.M.]: But anyways this shyt could be a book, lol.

blackinches1345 [11:55 P.M.]: lol it could be

blackinches1345 [11:55 P.M.]: how ironic would that be

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: LOL

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: what should be the name of it?

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: from a Thug to Bryson Daniels or what?

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: LOL

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: He'd kill me dawg

blackinches1345 [11:56 P.M.]: lol hell yeah

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: lol

blackinches1345 [11:56 P.M.]: lol but it's hot THO

blackinches1345 [11:56 P.M.]: tho*

down_souff_nigg [11:56 P.M.]: But anyways did I ever shoot you my number?


blackinches1345 [11:57 P.M.]: I’m not going to lie, i'm a lil jealous

blackinches1345 [11:57 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [11:57 P.M.]: Cause I’m bout to go take a shower

blackinches1345 [11:57 P.M.]: but yeah, i got it

down_souff_nigg [11:57 P.M.]: Dawg Jealous of what?

blackinches1345 [11:57 P.M.]: that s***t is hot

down_souff_nigg [11:57 P.M.]: You aint gots to lie Craig you aint gots to lie, you know I loooove yo' Mamaaaaaaaaaa

down_souff_nigg [11:57 P.M.]: LOL

down_souff_nigg [11:57 P.M.]: Today is Friday

blackinches1345 [11:57 P.M.]: lol u dumb

blackinches1345 [11:57 P.M.]: yes it is

down_souff_nigg [11:57 P.M.]: I know dawg

down_souff_nigg [11:58 P.M.]: Life Behind Frederick, the author

blackinches1345 [11:58 P.M.]: yup

down_souff_nigg [11:58 P.M.]: I don't let too many people in my universe like this

blackinches1345 [11:58 P.M.]: yeah?

down_souff_nigg [11:58 P.M.]: but anyways dawg, Im going to shower and buss a phat nut and think about Bryson

blackinches1345 [11:58 P.M.]: hotness

down_souff_nigg [11:58 P.M.]: And if you're still on when I get out we can holla, vibe, chat or talk

down_souff_nigg [11:58 P.M.]: your choice

down_souff_nigg [11:58 P.M.]: lol

blackinches1345 [11:58 P.M.]: lol hahaha

blackinches1345 [11:59 P.M.]: u high off that d***k slim

down_souff_nigg [11:59 P.M.]: Hell yea

down_souff_nigg [11:59 P.M.]: And they say milk does the body good

blackinches1345 [11:59 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [11:59 P.M.]: Nah I guess that slogan came from a fat b***h

down_souff_nigg [11:59 P.M.]: cause Nut does the a***e and thy face better

down_souff_nigg [11:59 P.M.]: lol

down_souff_nigg [11:59 P.M.]: OOOH Snap!

blackinches1345 [11:59 P.M.]: lol whatever