Saddaddy, I think that's "never to have loved at all"

Lost (oh good, here's one of my alltime favorites)

I am Not Yours by Sara Teasdale

I am not yours, not lost in you
Not lost, although I long to be,
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright.
Yet, I am I, and long to be
Lost, as a light is lost in light.

Plunge me deep in love, put out my senses
Leave me deaf and blind
Swept by the tempest of your love
A taper in a rushing wind.