I understand all that everyone is saying, but when I came back this last time, I guess I really wanted to believe it would get better. I have been married for 12 yrs, Yes I know there is help there. Cann't call the cops he knows them and where I live it's next to imposssible just to walk out, my neighors will not help me either. They love him to death, his family is on his side. I feel right now I'm betwwen a stone and a chair. Or however that expression goes. I just need some traveling money, I have all the papers I need put away just need some cash and I'll leave. I'm sorry I caused all this trouble.
I was brought up you made the bed now lie in it. Sometimes I just need to hear it from someone else. I go over and over it in my head, and I cann't be all wrong, like he says!

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What do you mean at MY AGE?