((((((((((((wyndhy))))))))))) I hope you find the answers you need Hon. I too grew up in an alcoholic home. Like others, Dad was a functional alcoholic. Still things got pretty messy at times. I saw him recover though and become a man on a misson. He spent the best of 20 years trying to help others addicted. I've been involved in a few "rescue missions" myself. It's never easy. You'll need to find your own way of coping with the guilt and pains he causes. I'd suggest a few Alanon meetings. These people are those who share the same problems. Its not for everyone but I've seen some great things come from this group. Whatever you try I wish you God's speed. As you've seen, there are any number friends available here as well. Vent, scream, reach out and use us as you will. We're only too happy to be any help we can.

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