I have never been a small girl, but I carry and have always carried my pounds very well.
I will never forget back in high school my senior year. I weighed a whopping 160 (What I wish I weighed now) and one of those stick people came up to me in the bathroom and asked if I was pregnant. I was mortified. I thought I looked good and that one comment sparked so much self doubt and pain that it took me awhile to get over it.
The way I look at it now is that even though I may not be what "Mainstream Society" says is attractive and pretty, doesn't mean that there aren't people out there that will find me attractive and pretty, or that I am NOT attractive and pretty. I have a husband who says so along with many friends.
I decided long ago that these people who make these comments are really just trying to find a way to make themselves feel better by being mean to someone else and it is still societally okay to pick on fat people. I realized that these people in the long run are very likely insignificant and so I make no excuses to them.
I am 245 pounds now, and I wear tight clothes, low necklines, and I take naked pictures that I happily and freely post on the internet(which I never did before). If anyone decides to tell me something I look them straight in the eye and simply say, "Did you hear me ask for your advice, help, or comments? Because I don't remember doing that." This usually stops them dead cold.
Not to say that I don't wish I weighed less, but I am healthy and that's all that matters. I do yoga and belly dance and lots of sex for exercise. I eat healthily and I keep a good attitude. That's good enough for me.
