There was a woman I loved named Tessa abourt 20 years ago,

It was not long after the therapy I had been having to overcome childhood abuse and gang rape at 16 which stuffed my head so much for many years.

I met Tessa through a dating agency and she was everything that I ever wanted. She was intelligent, passionate and quite beautiful, I was very surprised she was interested in me.

She was very insecure after having had an abusive relationship. I suspect it was much worse than she ever told me.

She was very skittish about a lot of things and I did not read her very well, she was my first long term girlfriend and I was 30 years old. She eventually sent me a letter telling me she couldn't see me anymore because of her emotional state and not because of me.

Well I lamely accepted it and didn't keep trying and I have regretted it ever since.

About 6 years ago I met her in the Brisbane Street mall. We chatted and then had a cup of coffee together. She told me she was still alone and in all that time I was the only man that had touched her heart and she had been going through a bad time then. She told me that she had often wished we had gone further in our relationship.

by the time she had got in a right frame of mind I was married. I now think that I married my wife on the rebound of losing Tessa.

She has moved interstate and has no relatives left locally as her parents have both passed on and her brother moved when i knew her.

I would put Tessa in the category of the one that got away and I think that my life would have been a great deal happier had I had the tenacity that I have now.

Dear Lixy i feel for you Hun and any others in the same position I send you warm vibes

Grumble