I generally sit around watching other people chat while I listen to depressing music designed to keep me depressed for as long as possible until it feels like it would be easier to just claw my heart out then sit there and deal with the pain lol then I take a swig of the bottle of vodka I keep next to my comp for whenever I get depressed and I let it burn down my throat and it heats up my chest and it seems to help me forget about the pain for a few seconds lmao, then I generally try to do something to cheer myself up before I get depressed again ^_^ lmao

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You ask me if I've known love and what it's like to sing songs in the rain?
Well I've seen love come, I've seen shot down, I've it die in vain

Maybe someday I'll see you again, and you'll look me in my eyes and call me a friend.