Have a sex toy but it's too much of a production. Only use it when I'm in the mood for something special. Usually just use the hand and lotion. Have come to enjoy "injaculating" though. Makes for a very intense orgasm with no cleanup!

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.