Thank you Jenna for your thoughts.

The reason that I did not experiment before I became involved with my wife is that she is my high school sweetheart. I have only had one other lover besides my wife. About six months after that relationship ended was when I met my wife. That six months was spread out over summer vacation and the first semester of my junior year of high school. I only knew of one openly gay male and he avoided having any relationship with another school member. Adding the fact that he was simply not my type left me with practically no opportunity to experiment with a same sex relationship.

Even though this dilema is slightly exhausting emotionally, the love and loyalty that I have for my wife makes up for that. I know that I would never risk the trust we have between ourselves, I simply wish that I could communicate with her in a way that would get my message across without offending or upsetting her.