miliion thanks for all replies.

i survived.

i took few days off and tried to settle down everything with her but i failed. we're still together because we both know that it's really hard for us to let go each other. this makes me even worse. i can feel my heart is squeezing real hard all the time and it's really weak now. feels like it's going to stop beating at anytime. thanks to my family doctor. she gave me lots of advises and medicines to keep me going until today.

the problems are still there but there is nothing that we can do. just be prepared for the worse, hope for the best.


love shouldn't be like this right?

**It was Jan 29th, sorry..**