That's the thing... I am FOR THE MOST PART... how I want to be.... I don't know.. I am the type of person who can't stand to be alone... I can handle it but its that thought of being alone that bugs the hell out of me.... I know... I'm follish... and I know its not meant to last... but it be nice that it atleast last awhile... and not always ending to end so badly... *sigh*... Oh well...