I can usually quelch the desire for a week or so. If, after that point, I happen to wake up with a painfully hard erection...well, it just feels so fucking good to hold it firmly in my hand and stroke it really slowly.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.