Yep, I know it sounds obvious but you are suffering from stress.

All of your complaints are classic indicators.

You need to realise that an ineffectual Osuche is no help to anyone and that in this case, putting yourself higher up your priority list is not being selfish, it will actually benefit everyone.

You've said in the past that working out helps you to relax and while that's a concept completely lost on me, perhaps finding a half hour a day to do some exercise will get you back on track. Alternatively, some other kind of relaxation technique for just ten minutes a day can make a difference.

I know you think you don't have time, but at the moment you're probably spending more than 10 minutes a day trying to sort out things you've messed up, apologising to people you've upset with your anger, or beating yourself up about how you aren't being the best Osuche you can be.

For everyone's benefit, you have to put yourself closer to the top of your list for a while, and if anyone questions it (which they won't - it's sometimes depressing to see how the world does NOT stop spinning when you stop pedalling for a while) you need to explain that you need to do this in order to function.

The more useful a person you are in a family/ business/ whatever, the more important it is that you look after yourself. Take this from someone who has recently learned what it means for someone else's very existence to depend on you.

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