My surrender...to myself
 

I'm a submissive. I've always been a submissive and my wife knew that when she married me. I was delighted not only when she humored my lifestyle, but actually encouraged me to submit to her, and take control of my life.

I've always been attracted to domineering women and Karen and I were just made for each other. Our personalities matched perfectly. Karen kept me naked whenever I was at home, and when we had company, usually a girlfriend or couple she knew from her work, I would be stood, naked, cuffed and collared, scared to death of being exposed, in a closet inside the front door, just off the living room. Just before her guests were let in, she loved to hand me a gallon of water and order me to drink it...knowing that within minutes, I'd be dying to go pee!! The second time this happened...she popped her head into the closet and smiled at the empty pitcher...and my struggling need to relieve myself!

"You can always pee in the pitcher" she explained....."but the next time I open this door, it better be empty."

That was the first time, I tasted piss...I had no choice but to empty my bladder, and again no choice but to drink it....only to piss in it again later, and drink it again!

After that night, I never pissed in the toilet again. There was a special pitcher in the kitchen I peed in. From that pitcher, I had to pour out one 8 ounce glass, drink it, and was allowed to dump the rest. The reason for this was simple....Karen figured if I "liked" my own piss.....I'd LOVE hers. She began using my pitcher as well, and watching me drink a glass of her pee.

If I was good, obeyed everything she said, I got to masturbate once a day, whether I wanted to or not, but I had to do it standing in front of her, ejaculate onto a saucer and lick it up afterwards. Karen controlled all sex...I went down on her daily, as soon as she got home from work, until she came several times..that’s when I would be the horniest...but she always made me wait till later to cum. I was allowed to fuck her once a week, and she controlled that too. I had to stay hard, which was easy..but not cum until she told me too...I had to tell her I was close, so she'd order me to stop, hold my place inside her, until cooled down, and start again. By the time I was practically in tears, she would let me cum, but lick her clean afterwards.

I only asked Karen for a blowjob once...she informed me she didn't like doing it, but she tried anyway. She ordered me not to cum, but I couldn't help it, she was great at it, I came in her mouth, she actually swallowed it too, but informed me I would never do that again. We never had sex for two months.

Two days before my birthday, I lost my job. I don't know if it was because of that or not...but for my birthday Karen gave me one of those chrome locking cock tube chastity devices. My masturbation days were over, and while we were actually sleeping in separate beds before, we started sleeping in a new bigger bed together, so Karen could torment me all night long!! Instead of fucking her, I got one handjob a week, then it was back in the tube!

"Since you no longer have a job to go to, you'll have to stay home" Karen told me. She cleaned out the tiny closet in the spare room, and at 9am, before she went to work, that’s where I went!

"You've always liked me in high heels" she said. "Lets see how you like wearing them all day."

I was placed in a pair of her 4" open toed heels, my hands were cuffed behind me....tied together with masking tape, and a chain went from my collar to the clothes bar in the closet keeping me standing all day

"I know you can break the tape on your wrists" she explained. "The key to the lock on your neck is right there on the shelf, if there’s an emergency, you can get free...but if I come home, and find you loose and the house hasn't caught fire, or your life hasn't been in total and complete danger...you'll spend all summer naked in the back yard, night and day, rain or shine and you won't get that thing off your cock until your next birthday."

Karen placed my pee pitcher on a stool, just under my cock, hung an enema bag above my head with her morning pee in it...and the nozzle in my mouth, and closed the door.

Over a couple of months, Karen added a variety of changes to my closet days. She would place two cooking dishes full of rocks under my naked feet, keeping my constantly struggling all day, or make me stand on heating pads all day. Occasionally she would save up our combined piss, and make me stand in that all day. We never got into anal play, but I did learn to hold in a butt plug all day, or she would leave the closet door open, blindfold me and turn the air conditioning to freezing cold, and a fan blowing on me.

"As soon as you make me cum, I'll let you take a hot shower to warm up." would be my evening reward.

The weekends were all about her tormenting me.....clothespins and nipple clamps, toothpaste, Ben Gay, or little suction cups were always on my nipples. She knew I had a foot fetish so I'd spend an hour on each of her feet, licking, sucking, especially after she ran around barefoot all day, even outdoors, rubbing them, painting her nails, then I'd have to paint mine to match hers.

One of her favorite torments was to release my cock, and order me to jerk off...with a one hour timer on the table next to me.
"If you cum before the timer goes off...I'll smear Ben Gay all over your balls...if you don't stay hard, I'll put it on your cock, and if the bell goes off first, I'll give you 5 minutes in my pussy" I don't know how, but I always held out, got my 5 minutes, and an orgasm......all except one time....I came too soon. Karen put me back in the tube, gagged me, hung me in the closet and smeared my nuts with Ben Gay.....I cried for an hour, I've never felt such agony!!!

It was two days after Thanksgiving....when Karen began having long phone calls....and she got so serious....about her ex-husband having problems with his life...and losing his job. I only met the guy once, an arrogant, snooty kind of guy...who I disliked right away. Somehow, I knew what was coming next....and feared my life was about to come crashing down all around me.

"Does he know....you're married again, and......about me?" I asked Karen during one of the few times I was actually to speak openly to her.....

"He does now," she replied rather casually to me. "He's coming to stay here for a while...until he can get back on his feet."

“So what.....about....me?"

"You're not going anywhere," Karen almost laughed. "Your situation just got a whole lot more interesting...you'll serve and obey him just like you do me.....and I'm finally gonna get fucked a whole lot more!!"


Part two....when Marc moves in.............................................

My surrender...to myself.....part two
 

I think what bothered me most about Marc was that everybody liked him, Karen certainly did...her friends did, he became part of her life again, and I was the quiet, shy, part of her life she kept private.

That first night he was there, I was actually dressed, but still wore my cuffs, and the cock tube. That first night, I was moved to the spare room, where I tried desperately to masturbate, while i listened to Marc and Karen fucking their brains out all night long!!

Karen took a few days off, to adjust, but it was harder for me than either one of them!! Marc approached me in the kitchen while I was cooking their breakfast, and Karen was in the shower.

"We discuss it last night," Marc said with a big cheesy grin, “and we decided you're gonna resume your normal status....so you can ditch the clothes...but the tube stays on....in fact," he then added, "I have the key to it now!"

He hung it around his neck with his military dog tags, and I actually began to tremble. I was already naked when Karen came out, also naked, and just smiled at my undressed body.

Karen spent the morning explaining to Marc all my duties, my routines, and everything she did to and with me while she was at work. Marc had his hands all over her every minute, but he was watching me, dying with jealousy, and my poor cock, trying to get hard every time he kissed her or grabbed her ass.

"What about sex?" Marc finally asked.

"He eats my pussy every day after work, sometimes before I go to sleep, all I want on the weekends...and lately he hasn't earned enough points to actually get to fuck me."

"And him?”

"I let him masturbate now and then, but he's timed, if he cums before I tell him to, he gets his balls deep fried!!"

"He actually gets to cum?" Marc sort of chuckled.

"When I let him" Karen replied.

"And he eats it, just like he drinks his own piss...and mine too."

Marc just looked at me and gave me an evil smile. I knew i was in trouble! The next morning, Marc woke me up at around 7am. Karen was still asleep so we went to the second bathroom. I was pushed to my knees and Marc told me to open my mouth. I took about two inches of his cock into my mouth, and I
knew this wasn't a blowjob!

“Always wanted a human toilet," Marc whispered. He threw his head back and slowly began to piss!!! It was hotter than drinking it out of the glass....and it came alot faster! My mouth filled and I began to gulp! My face was covered in sweat...the taste was horribly stronger than mine or Karen’s. I kept gulping, I didn't think he'd ever stop, my throat was on fire, my belly ached and bloated, and I realized I too had to pee. He finally finished and looked down at me.

"Suck it, lick it clean," he ordered. Even after he was done, he kept it in my mouth. "You better get acquainted with that" he sort of chuckled. "You two are gonna be spending alot of time together.......now make me CUM!"

My step brother, a long time ago, was my first blowjob, and my last, but I knew what to do. I took Marc’s 9 inches balls deep, used my tongue, choking on the sweaty, pissy, rich taste of Karen’s pussy on his cock!

"OH FUCK....I'm........... GONNA............CUM!" he announced. "SWALLOW IT BITCH!!" he groaned...introducing a new name for me.

He came twice what I usually do. It was scalding hot, thick and nasty...but I choked it down and licked him clean.

"Now kiss it.....and thank it" Marc insisted.

Totally humiliated, I kissed the huge head of his cock and whispered "Thank You" to his cock!!

"I'm gonna go fuck your wife," he said. He led me to the foot of the bed and told me to kneel and watch a real man fuck!! Karen woke up giggling, and Marc mounted her, for a long hard fuck ending in his second load in her pussy!! When Karen saw me there watching, she just smiled!

"Don't you wish you could do that?" she teased!

"All he's good for is cleaning up," Marc then said.

I was ordered to the bed where I sucked Marcs second load, out of Karen’s pussy, then I licked Marc clean.

Karen watched wide eyed!

"I want to watch him suck your cock!!" she giggled to Marc.
Karen didn't know about my earlier blowjob, or that this would be Marcs THIRD load!

"You heard the lady" Marc said to me. "Suck it!"

After almost 15 minutes, Marc still hadn't cum! Karen got up to take her shower.

"Don't stop until he cums," Karen warned me....and I was still choking on Marc 10 minutes later when she returned!! She sucked on his nipples, played with his balls and after another 10 minutes of furious sucking, he came again!

"Looks like you have a new addition to your diet!" Karen laughed!

Karen finally returned to work. My days were more torturous than ever. I spent hours stroking and keeping Marc hard, ending every session with a blowjob. Between sucking him, I spent my days licking his balls, his feet, bringing him beers while he laid out on the patio.....he discovered if he turned me facing the sun...the chrome tube on my cock became very HOT!! I was nearly in tears....watching him drink his beer in the shade, laughing at my simmering cock!

By day I was his BITCH. He began dressing me in crotchless, fishnet pantyhose, and Karen showed me how to put on eyeliner and dark, almost black lipstick. Karen loved watching me suck Marcs cock, she must have known I'd been doing it all day, because I'd have Marc in my mouth for sometimes over an hour, as they watched tv and totally ignored me trying to just make him cum!

Karen loved watching me suck Marc off, then getting him hard again, because then he'd mount her and fuck her with dry balls and an endless hardon, until Karen had to beg him to stop!!

Marc was in a particularly evil mood one day....after Karen went to work, he tied me face up, spread eagle on the coffee table in the living room. He popped in a porno dvd.....5 hours it said on the screen, then I saw it was a gay porno!

"This is your lucky day" Marc said......

He removed my cock tube, and as the dvd started, he began to suck my cock!!! It had been months since I had a blowjob and I came in his mouth in minutes!! Instead of the punishment I expected...he swallowed my cum and just smiled!! On the screen, a fresh blowjob started, and so did Mark! I was still very sensitive but I got hard again right away. Gagged with a ball gag, all I could do was grunt. In about 10 minutes, I came again! Marc sat up, caught his breath...and just smiled at me!

"I'm gonna do this all day" he laughed....."Lets see how much your poor cock can take!!"

Again, he swallowed me balls deep and I groaned, more with discomfort than pleasure...my cock was so tender!! Marc sucked slowly...teasing me hard again.....for almost 20 minutes...then I came rather weakly....a third time. This time he didn't even stop....I was writhing and groaning in pain! Marc sucked harder now, barely getting me hard, he started tugging on my balls, twisting them and pulling on them. I was growling loudly, and he knew why!! I actually had a dry orgasm...the spasms and the throbbing was there but I had no cum left!!

"C'mon pussy boy....what’s a matter...your cock can't handle it?!"
I was sweating profusely, by balls ached and my body was cramping up from the muscle contractions! Mark continued his sucking. I had no escape. My legs were spread wide, my poor cock was just there, totally exposed, and helpless!!

Marc continued, I was more swollen up than hard. He spent a long time just on my cock head...and I wanted to scream!!!. Marc sucked me for a whole hour and got nothing from me.

He decided that if I didn't have any cum left in me...he'd put some there. He mounted me 69, and buried his cock down my throat. While he chewed on me...I sucked him off and swallowed a huge load. He finally gave up on my cock, but he stayed in my mouth for almost 30 minutes, until he
came again watching the porno on the tv.

He'd been sucking me almost 4 hours, my cock was swollen twice its size, purple and bruised throbbing with pain.....just like my balls!! There was no way my cock tube was going back on. That’s when Marc introduced me to the CB3000...a plastic cock cage that also locked on. I was in agony as he forced me into it, and closed the lock.

Suddenly Karen came in and smiled at my new cock prison.

"Does it fit?” she asked.

"Right now, I don't think he WANTS to take it off!! Marc said.

Karen examined it on me...and smiled at Marc. "Gimme the keys," she said to Marc. He handed her both tiny metal keys, and Karen opened the sliding patio door and stepped out. She held the keys, above a hollow steel pipe about 6 feet high, used to hold the wooden privacy fence up in the back yard. I began screaming through the gag I was wearing...my eyes teared up.....as she dropped both keys into the hollow pipe!!!

"I'm afraid that’s not the original lock," Karen said to me...."That one’s a titanium, high security lock…it’s too small for bolt cutters to get in there, so it'll have to be torched off...that means it's permanent...and so is that cock cage.....say goodbye to your cock, and the chance of ever getting a hard on again!!"

Just to prove their point...I was fed a Viagra, and suffered for hours, watching Marc and Karen Fuck in front of me.

"The only sex organ you have now" Karen said, "Is right there in your fucking mouth....so get up here and use it!!"

A month after that, Marc got a huge severance check from his job, I was silently divorced and Marc married Karen again! Karen still has her job and Marc does computer programming...of course...at home! I spend all my days..... tied up in horrible positions, and sucking Marc over and over and over...then Karen over and over and over at night! My cock has been caged for almost 4 months now, and Karen has learned to milk me...using her fingers in my ass to work my prostate...I get to see all my wonderful cum forced out of me, without the thrill of cumming...just before it’s fed to me.

I look back, to early marriage days....and realized....I did this to myself!