well i'm horny
HORNY
HORNY!!!

I was horny.

I had sex.

I'm not horny. (for now :tongue:)

I drank delicious wine last night.

I will be drinking delicious wine tonight with this fabulous lentil curry.

I am heading in to work now.

1. I'm really disappointed my neighbors are moving.
2. I need a shower.
3. I did not sleep well last night.

1) My grandfather killed himself long enough ago that I have no memory of him, he did it while I was still very young. (And I know the reasons why his mind was unstable enough to consider suicide as an option)

2) I had a friend who commited suicide several years back (And I know the PROBABLE reason why he did it, though I can never be 100% sure of the truth).

3) I can't afford to go around thinking I'm invincible, otherwise I'll never survive. If I don't keep an eye on my reality and my state of mind, I won't be able to fight those suicidal urges. I've been successful for a very long time (and have even gotten it to the point where I might think about maybe once every two weeks or more, instead of daily), and I'd just as soon keep my successful streak going for a very long time (I don't want my future grandkids to have no memory of one of their grandfathers like I do)

And back for a less depressing 3 things (hopefully) than my last ^

1) That last post of mine is not something that is ever easy for me to talk about, but I've found that just talking about it makes it easier to deal with

2) It is something that I've gotten help with, but the medications never worked for me and going through 5 councilors in 2 years made me decide that therapy wasn't for me

3) The 2 years of therapy (and I'm not faulting any of my councilors, just the "business" that employed them) were helpful, the councilors were able to give me an ability to recognize when the depressions are coming on (or those suicidal urges) and gave me a way of coping with those times until they pass. I just wish that I'd've been able to just stick to one councilor instead getting shifted around.

I'm not too regretful that I went out last night because my mind really needed it and it was fun to commune with friends. But I should've just went home after the first place. :spank:

This is my "Get My Shit Straight" week. I had planned on relaxing during my minor vacation from work, but thanks to my roommate moving out, I have to do some hustling. Maybe it was supposed to be this way and I need to have faith that things will work out.

I hope and pray that I am able to keep this apartment. If I can't, things won't become impossible, but just annoyingly irritating in having to look for a new share.

1. Reading ShadowsFate's postings and sending warm thoughts and strength in SF's direction.

2. Reading about IK's predicament and hope he finds a quick and solid resolution to the challenge.

3. Thinking how unique Pixies is and wondering why I hardly ever have time to get here. (Aside from an incompetent ISP.)

1. I miss Pixies so much, it isn't funny.

2. I miss Lilith all the more.
3. I miss being WildIrish, and having people know me that well.

1/ Computers frustrates the crap outta me sometimes!

2/ I think i've finally got the damn thing reloaded with most of my programs after a major crash and burn

3/ The new IE8 is great, and i'm liking the new MSN too *L*

1. The Internet problem has finally been fixed by Comcast.
2. Stepson needs 7 tooth extractions and at least 6 crowns, possible bridges or partials. Hereditary defect in the teeth from his mother's side. (He's still job hunting.)
3. Today was the day for hilarious cockroach experience stories at the charity group.

1. I'm still in my nightie and been outside in it..
2. it's a gorgeous hot day today thinking of going to the beach
3. still staring at PF's doggy photos lol

1. I really did 'just get off the boat'

2. I am super psyched about a special honor that I was chosen for

3. I feel like givin' a beatin' so I'm hunting PF :D

1. I didn't sleep real well :(
2. Blood sugar has been running a bit high
3. I'm ready for PAGAN 09

1) I cannot tell a lie...I chopped down a cherry tree today.

2) Got visit with my brother in law for the first time in a year.

3) Took a wonderful late afternoon nap.

I went to a friend's kid's birthday party today. Gosh, I am getting old and falling behind.

I am allergic to the antibiotics I am taking and I have a rash all over my body

They also didn't work....after 3 days, I am still peeing blood. Sigh.

Orgasms when you've been holding back your horniness feel SOOOOOOO fucking good. My brain is ten times clearer thanks to that cum.

I should've gotten out of bed earlier, there are many many things for me to do and I don't have time in two days off to do them in.

I want to go to Target and get Prince's new 3-disc album.

1. I too want to go get the 3-disc Prince set

2. My intern is teaching this week and I'm loving it.

3. I got accepted into an autism program at a uni today and I get to go for free :D

(show-off)



:line: :thumbs: :cheerlead:

1. had my sinuses xrayed today.
2. i got absolutely nothing done at work and the boss is gonna be pissed.
3. i watched and loved "RuPaul's Drag Race: Search for the Next Drag Superstar" on logoonline.com and LOVED it.

I'm on day two of my vacation!

I bought a new outfit that actually makes me feel cute.

I bought pretty plants to make my first ever window box.

Tess what kinda plants ? there is a pretty pink one native to CA forget the name but it grows like a sum o bitch

1 went to chiropractor and got adjusted and sore as hell
2. Went to bookstore today with my daughter and had great time
3. Cashed a check of my birthday money

YEAHHH

1. Rode public transit (not something I normally do)
2. Went to see "Wicked"
3. Ate a fantastic salad

I had a night with my home girls.

A Lost Girl had a pretty major seizure today and it scared us all.

Some talked me off the ledge today and I appreciated it.

I'm looking forward to my trip tomorrow.

I'm not looking forward to packing.

I really wish I had time to visit a Pixie friend while I'm away.

1) Hoping my newly spread grass seed sprouts today

2) Hoping to catch The Masters today

3) Breaking in my new WiiFit...a good alternative for me on days when I don't have the time to get to the gym. The yoga is killing me, though! :p

A friend of the family's son died at school yesterday. His heart just gave out and he died in front of his whole 4th grade class while his teacher tried desperately to save him.

I had a great week while my intern did all the teaching.

It is Most Honorable Son #2's bday this weekend.

I want to go wine tasting or hiking today

I will finish my taxes today

I have a hankering to go house looking

I'm enjoying the smell of the rain today.

Only have 1 more load of laundry to wash.

It's going to be low-key today.

We owe $$ on taxes and might have to get creative about how we pay it

I am having lunch with a friend at a new place that just opened up a little Indonesian restaurant. Her treat. :D

I am waiting for my cycles to start, feeling both crampy and horny which is not a good combination.

I too had tax issues for the first time, I did not realize that you can not count a 17 year old in the child tax credit which meant 1,000 more I owed. Not part of my original plan so we too had to give up the little savings we had and pay it in taxes.

I am going to a special dinner/premier tonight.

My kids are almost grown and I wasn't ready for it yet.

I am feeling like I cannot cope

I am seeing the doctor today and will ask about ADs

That thought scares the shit out of me

Sorry to hear that things seem to getting on top of you FWM. :console: Sometimes medication can help you over the hurdles and functioning like normal by taking care of imbalances in brain chemistry and allowing you to focus on tackling the other difficulties that life throws at you.

Saw doctor

Got diagnosed

Got meds



Thank you pinkFlames :x: The doctor pretty much said exactly the same, and drew me diagrams, too!

I'm cold

I'm really hoping the rain holds off until late tonight like the forecasters have promised

Really freakin' cold

I'm back in WARM.

I'm back online after nearly 10 days.

I'm glad to be home.

1. After a seemingly endless period of waiting, I have finally been approved for Disability!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. I am ecstatic!!!....Relieved!!!!...stunned!!!!.....and grateful to God!!!!

3.I really don't know what to do next!!....LOL...:)

jbh3,

Good for you! :thumb:


... and I am certain you will tend to #3. :)

Excellent news, I am really happy for you :thumbs: I remember you mentioning this ages ago and I'm glad it's finally sorted out :boobs: :line: