Deep Dark Secrets

[RandyGal]

Nooooo this isn't another nipple thread.


Well, it COULD be depending on if any of our pierced members post. :D



Deep dark secrets...do you have any that you don't mind Pixies knowing about?
Is there anything about you that not many and maybe nobody knows?


OK. I'll go first.

I have MS. Nothing much troubles me with it so I don't talk about it much. :D

Next...........

[theICEmancumeth]

If I told you it wouldnt be a secret now would it? :)

[RandyGal]

Maybe I need to retitle the thread......


Deep Dark Secrets EXPOSED! LOL

[theICEmancumeth]

LOL, that works!


Ok....this ought to be easy for me, because not many here know a whole lot about me :D

Sooooo here goes...I wish I had about 2 more inches :o

[RandyGal]

:eek: :whiteghos

THAT was personal!

LOL And thanks for sharing! :D

Guys always want to be bigger don't they? Silly guys.

[Sugarsprinkles]

Originally posted by RandyGal
:eek: :whiteghos

Guys always want to be bigger don't they? Silly guys.

Geez, RG, must you always think that way???? Maybe he just wants to be TALLER!!! Didja ever think of that??? LOL:D

[jjjjbo]

What's that old quote .... You're only as sick as the secrets you keep.

I've long since stopped keeping this secret, but still like many personal things .... you don't usually bring things up in the first conversation, so not many on the site know this about me .... I grew up with an alcoholic parent ... in my early 20's I learned how to be open with this and discovered that I was not isolated in this .... once you realize you are not alone ... funny how much easier it is to heal ..... sorry to go to the really serious side .... but RG - thanks, every time I simply make the statement it seems it provides me an opportunity to talk with others who in many cases have never been able to tell that secret about their life before .....

on the less serious side .... I'm a pixie peruser! lol jjjjbo

[theICEmancumeth]

Originally posted by Sugarsprinkles


Geez, RG, must you always think that way???? Maybe he just wants to be TALLER!!! Didja ever think of that??? LOL:D

Well I wouldn't mind being 2 inches taller either :p

[Sugarsprinkles]

Originally posted by theICEmancumeth


Well I wouldn't mind being 2 inches taller either :p

Yeah, me too!! This being only 5' tall can really suck sometimes!!:D ;) :D

[Oldfart]

promise?

[biggun]

That is too funny...I believe 5' would be perfect for that!

[Thinker]

Well here is my secrets, (kinda). Not only am I a virgin, I have never had a Girlfriend and have never been kissed. :eek: Also I have a strage desiese called "Granuloma of the Nasal Septum" Cause unkown. Simply put this mean I have a hole in my nasal septum (the thing that seperates your norstrals) that was caused by a nasty things called Granuloma. Granuloma is normally a side effect of a desiese, but in my case they were never able to track down how I got it and they suspect that it happens to be random. And no it ain't catchy, isn't disfiguering, and in my case it isn't fatal, (so far).

[Lilith]

I'm really a man! shhhhhh don't tell:p:p:p:p

[dannyk]

okay don't take this the wrong way, but i'm very sensitive about my figure! so much so, i'm practically feminine about it! you know, looking at myself in the mirror, going "does this make me look fat?" no, please, don't stare!

[Ironwood]

I thought this thread would be spicier.

I'm not proud of the time I had sex with a young woman in the afternoon, and when she went home for dinner with her parents, had her friend over for more of the same. Of course they found out when they talked about what they did over the weekend.

[RandyGal]

I HOPED this thread would be spicier! LOL

Oh well....I can add some spice. Hmmmmmm thinking, thinking....


I have it.


I am....


married to Lilith! :p :D :cool: :eek: :p


I suppose I really should add one of these too, huh? ;)

[Sugarsprinkles]

Well, this isn't particularly spicy....in fact it's not spicy at all...but I guess one of my secrets that I'm not especially proud of is that I was a high school dropout!! Yeah...I sure was...Bet you never thought I could have done something THAT stupid, huh?
Well, I did. It was March of my Junior year.(11thr grade) and I was about to fail the grade because I had missed so much school that year. So, in my immature wisdom, I concluded it would look better on my records if I dropped out rather than flunked out. So I quit. And got a job!! WOW!! How cool was that??? I was making my own money..buying my own clothes..all at a whopping $1.03 per hr!! Which gave me a take-home pay of about $35.00 per week.
By the time summer came and I saw all my friends graduating and enjoying all the "fringe benefits" like class pictures, class ring, and other stuff like that, I decided I wanted to go back.
I had to kiss a few butts to get back in, but I did it. I had to take the grade over and graduate a year late, but I didn't really mind that much. In the long run it was worth it....I even got the "fringe benefits". LOL Here's my graduation pic just to show ya' I really did graduate...

[BlondeCurlGirl]

This isn't really "spicy" either, but, I still haven't told anybody I'm close to about this...my first true love left me for a GUY...I caught them making out in his dorm room one night. After we broke up, I found out he totally changed his personality...went to the extreme of enjoying fishnets/vinyl, nipple piercings, the works...and started pursuing his best friend from high school. I am totally cool with bisexuality and everything, but I would have at least appreciated him telling me what was on his mind instead of a total about-face with his sexuality.

That sure doesn't help a girl's self-esteem...

[BamaKyttn]

lessee. spicy? spicy.....? I have a penis.... it's pink and wobbly it's so cool!

I had sex with three... or was it four men in the same afternoon, in three different towns all atleast 30 mins away from one another

got my first kiss from a woman, 4 years and 5 men before she became my girlfriend.

in one evening, my g/f an I had sex on my bed, my parents bed, our bed, and her ex b/fs bed

my mom was a virgin when my parents got married, my dad married her just to get in her pants, 29 years later they are still together because she is so naive he can't bear to put her out.



ok deep dark, probably going to be censored secret....

When I was young, 9-10 I used to hope my dad or some male figure in my life would rape me so I would never have to have sex.
I got raped when I was 12 or 13 by some black man I didn't know and he is still driving the same car even now.

ta-da! oh and Lil if you guys decide to pull this, I don't blame ya, it's sick and twisted.

Kyttn

[RandyGal]

BamaKyttn!!!
You wild woman YOU!

Them's some spicy secrets girlfriend......er.....pink and wobbly PENIS????


LOL LOL LOL

[Radies]

At the age of fifteen, a Zoroastrian named Vilma ritualistically shaved my testicles.



Damn that wasn't me....it was Dr. Evil....hmmm


Damn, I hate being so clean....I guess I have to say the biggest darkest secret I have is that I've slept with a 41 year old married woman........

here's the kicker.....it was just a few days past my 19th birthday when i did it....am i bad?

[legend]

I fucked Nikki three ways from Sunday ;) :D

[legend]

and she's a screamer too! :eek:

[RandyGal]

LEGEND!!!

That IS some deep dark secret....but not any more!

Sheesh...is everyone getting some but ME?????

LOL

Sounds like you two are having fun though. Congrats.


And Radies? You little devil you! ;)

[IndulgenceX2]

Randy Gal, I have MS too.
If I'm logged in but not posting it's because the internal connections aren't connecting well enough.
One unexpected great side effect: looking at Aqua's pictures with double vision! Double the pleasure, double the fun!

[Neige]

Well.... this isn't very dramatic or spicy... but it's true and I don't think I ever told anyone online....

I used to be tongue-tied. (Literally!) For years I couldn't even lick an ice cream cone! About 5 or 6 years ago though, a bit of day surgery fixed that up... The doctor just snipped the extra skin under my tongue and voilà! Now I can do this ~~~~> :p

:D

[Sugarsprinkles]

Originally posted by RandyGal
Sheesh...is everyone getting some but ME?????

LOL



No, RG, not everyone.................I know I'm certainly not.

But that's scheduled to change.........SOON!!!;) :D

HOT DAMN!!!!!!!!!;) :D ;) :D

[Kendall]

an affair with the mayor of a nearby city...

[glad it is long past]

[LixyChick]

Deep and Dark huh?

OMG.....I could write a book.....just how much space am I allowed here anyway?

OK......Here goes!

My father was an alcoholic. My mother was a diagnosed "Paranoid Schizophrenic". I have 3 sisters and 1 brother and all the while we were growing up we were afraid we may aquire one or both of these diseases. As I got older I investigated the possibilities of developing schizophrenia and found that it is not necessarily inherited....but can be....and/or a few other residual medical problems can be passed to me and my siblings. I do have a mild form of an OCD (Obscessive/Compulsive Disorder) in that I am a clean FREAK! I have a mild case of paranoia as well. All of you who know (somewhat) me will attest to this. And I do say "mild" because I know many people that think that the guys in the football huddle are talking about them...I have given up on that theory. I know they don't discuss me anymore! LOL! I have purposely/conscientiously kept my alcohol consumption in check. My siblings all exhibit some form of what my parents passed down. My brother (the oldest) was/is (I say was/is because he is missing and we haven't seen him in almost 13 years) a heroin drug addict. He stole from my mother to aid his addiction and had been in prison many times. I don't know at this writing if he is dead or alive. We've searched the country with the aid of my bro-in-law, a State Cop, to no avail. My older sister (2 years older than me) is nuts! What I mean to say is she and I have never really gotten along. She "shunned" the family (in shame I am assuming) while my parents were alive and now that they are gone, acts as if "family" is the nearest and dearest thing on this planet. She has had a "nervous breakdown" and has been in a mental hospital at one time for "her nerves". Yep, she's nuts! I am the middle child. My sister below me has followed in my mother's footsteps and denies any association of the correlation between her and Mom. Yet she has 5 children (4 girls and a boy) and she has a definate "split personality" at times. One moment she is talking very nice to me and the next she is screaming at me and hanging up the phone. Only to call back and appologize and turn around and do it again! My baby sister and I assume we are the only "normal" kids in the family although she has had her moments as well. In her younger days she was very permiscuous (a residual effect, I found in studying schizophrenia in heridity). But in all actuality I have found that ours is not the only disfunctional family on the planet. So no judgements here, please!

Oh....and also.........I am just so brutally honest to a fault at times and I never know when to shut up! I DO NOT have that "stop" thingy in my brain that most everyone else has. I say things and blurt things out and think about them later....my hind sight is 100% though.....something I am very proud of........NOT! LOL! I have many more deep dark secrets.....but I will let someone else have a crack at this before I use up all the space at Pixies.

[dm383]

Dunno if this counts as deep OR dark ~ a few years ago my then wife and I were visiting with friends. Somehow I wound up sitting between both girls, with HER husband out to the off-licence (liquor store, for my transatlantic frineds!) watching a video and chatting. (BTW, this girl and I had enjoyed a very flirty relationship for years)
Anyway, after a while I had one hand fondling my wifes right breast, the other fondling my friends left breast ~ and neither of them ever knew!! A fun time for all, cos they both thought I was only doing it with them, and they BOTH got really horny!

Bit boring, on reflection (sorry ~ had to be there I guess), but still - it's a SECRET!

[jjjjbo]

Lixy - I found the same thing ..... "not the only dysfunctional family around" in fact, seems to me from everyone I meet and/or talk with .... that most of us come from some kind of dysfunctional situation ... at differing levels of course!

And one of the really positive things that has come of such a background for me .... I know NOT to judge others because I have too many skeletons in my own closet to worry about what someone else may have done. lol

[kleclere]

Don't know all the acronyms. I guess my secret is only having 2 partners in my life.

[dm383]

And one of the really positive things that has come of such a background for me .... I know NOT to judge others because I have too many skeletons in my own closet to worry about what someone else may have done. lol [/B][/QUOTE]


To get a bit serious here (?! ~ not like me at all):- I live & work in Glasgow, Scotland, as a Psychiatric Nurse, working with people in their own homes. As jjjjbo said, I also have skeletons in MY closet, much darker than I posted earlier. But, I find, some of them help me relate better to my clients, and thus help me to be better at my job.

Every cloud has a silver lining, someone once said!!

:rolleyes:

[LixyChick]

I agree jjjjbo and dm383! I KNOW that most people have some sort of dysfunction in their family. I am not ashamed of my life. As a matter of fact I am rather proud of the fact that I could rise above some of the secrets and sorrow and pain I grew up with. Looking back there is maybe only one or two things I would change about my life if I could. And they are deeper than what I posted but suffice it to say that for the most part I am a better person for having had to strive to make it when "it" never seemed possible. I figure it this way...........if my life hadn't taken the course it did from the beginning I wouldn't be the person I am today. And I love myself today. I am a very generous, loving, attentive, wanton, sexual, casual, caring, helpful, earthy, happy person. And that's not such a bad thing. All that I am I owe to my parents and siblings. Even if they are the nuttiest people I know! They had their good points too. I just didn't talk of those here.

[scotzoidman]

I guess I don't have anything really dark or deep to reveal...I've led such a boring sheltered life, with no history of alcohol or drug problems, no major ailments to overcome...maybe that's my dark secret, behind the facade of the zinging smartass wit, I'm really incredibly dull...

[jjjjbo]

Never you Scotzoidman!!!! never dull!!!

[scotzoidman]

You have...no idea... ;)

[RandyGal]

I'll take dull over things I've experienced any day.

ANY DAY!



Please tell us more about your life scotzoidman...I'll live vicariously through you. ;)

[dm383]

As a matter of fact I am rather proud of the fact that I could rise above some of the secrets and sorrow and pain I grew up with.

Good on ya Lixy - I truly believe everyone has to "rise above" SOMETHING, and most manage very well.

But, as far as changing some of the things that you've experienced; if you did, you wouldn't BE the person you are now, like you say, and Mr. Lixy, and all of us at Pixies, would be the worse off for it!

SO, long live you loving yourself - and the rest of us!

:)

[KingMinotaur]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by PixieSprite
[B]Well.... this isn't very dramatic or spicy... but it's true and I don't think I ever told anyone online....

I used to be tongue-tied. (Literally!) For years I couldn't even lick an ice cream cone! About 5 or 6 years ago though, a bit of day surgery fixed that up... The doctor just snipped the extra skin under my tongue and voilà! Now I can do this ~~~~> :p

Wow.. when I was really litle , I had the same problem pxixesprite.. had to get operated on twice ; once when I was about 7 , and then again when I was 13 or so.. but am fully lingually functional now baby :fly:

[LixyChick]

ROFLMFAO @ RG!

[PantyFanatic]

Now I’m compelled to let everyone know…
…..,I am a lesbian trapped in a mans body!

[scotzoidman]

Originally posted by pantyfanatic
Now I’m compelled to let everyone know…
…..,I am a lesbian trapped in a mans body! You too?...and I thought I was the only one...so we're coming out together lol

[Sugarsprinkles]

Originally posted by pantyfanatic
Now I’m compelled to let everyone know…
…..,I am a lesbian trapped in a mans body!


Originally posted by scotzoidman
You too?...and I thought I was the only one...so we're coming out together lol

And you call that dull, Scotz???????? If that's dull, I'd hate to see
exciting! LOL!!!

[BlondeCurlGirl]

I found out last night that I scarred my guy's member from giving him a Nail Job (me scraping my long fingernails down the shaft...which he absolutely loves!) and he was thrilled that I've now branded him.

I'm sure all you guys are wincing in pain right now...

At first I was taken aback when I saw that, but after he told me he loves it, I couldn't have been more proud.

:)

[scotzoidman]

Originally posted by RandyGal
I'll take dull over things I've experienced any day.

ANY DAY!



Please tell us more about your life scotzoidman...I'll live vicariously through you. ;) I've taken my time about responding to this because I wanted to get it right...it is I who has been living vicariously thru all you people here...I've been the kind of guy who never takes a risk, never really been challenged by life until the last decade or so, and most of that has been pretty pedestrian...and I really didn't respond well to the challenges IMO. But within the last year, I've come out of my shell just a little (no small thanks to the great folks here), and begun to remember & persue my dreams again, & I have been sharing some of that with my family here...while I like to think I am very different from anyone you've ever met, the honest answer to RG's repeated requests for me to divulge my deep dark secrets is that there's no there there ;) Compared to the challenges being met by the people who've bared their souls here, I feel like I've experienced nothing...and let me say I have more respect for all of you than ever before...

[Ironwood]

Oh, and I'm having a mad passionate affair with someone here.

[A.K.'s Sex-Pot]

Are you Ironwood?!

I wonder who that could be.

Whoever it is, she's a very lucky girl . . .

[chicky]

hmm kinda feeling like a idiot here, since it has gone off topic this is going to stick out like a sore thumb lol.
ive never told anyone this
when i was young, about 8 or 9 my cousin would interfere with me, and one night i would have lost my cherry(yes at 8) only he heard someone, so luckily......and yep still a virgin and now 19.
when i was about 6 a there was a girl (bit older then me) in this town we used to live at, she used ot play with me(in a sexual way of course) ect you get the picture.

[Ironwood]

Originally posted by A.K.'s Sex-Pot
Are you Ironwood?!

I wonder who that could be.

Whoever it is, she's a very lucky girl . . .

The first part is definitely true, because she is quite mad. ;)

I'm pretty sure about the passionate bit as well.

I thought I was the lucky one, though.

[A.K.'s Sex-Pot]

Mad about you, perhaps. . . ;)

Only 'Pretty sure'? Note to self: 'must try harder!'

I'm not going to make the obvious 'getting lucky joke', though it's tempting!

[LixyChick]

(((((((((((((((scotz)))))))))))))))))!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TY baby!

As I said......I could write a book! But I also said.........if I hadn't had the many deep, dark experiences in my life......I wouldn't be who I am today! I'll share more, in open forum, someday.....when I know you are all sitting down!

Maybe someone can take from my life and learn that..........at it's darkest, there is truly a light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to chug your way through and never lose sight of the fact that life is a challenge and with each hurdle comes a great reward!

Oh geezzzzzzzzz!......Philosphy has never been my great suit! LOL!

[PantyFanatic]

Like ALL of us, he carries his load over the mountain too. Lifes’ journey has many trails. It goes over scores of different terrain. Some trails are congested with throngs of good and evil doers. Others lead threw the dark and empty caves. Gravity keeps us ALL on our path, whatever it may be. It is us that makes the excursion to each junction, along the next leg, and we ALL will reach the same destination. The END of the expedition.






(who said that?:rolleyes:)

[RandyGal]

It's so cool you guys shared as much as you did........

and pantyfanatic, that last bit was wonderful!


I've been thru so much I don't even BOTHER talking about it any more. Many would be horrified by some of the things I've experienced and encountered and SOME DAYS it IS hard to take another step forward..........


but.....

when I surround myself with kind generous people, it helps me see that there IS good out there and that it IS worth moving forward in life.

Thankyou ALL for being IN that group of people.

LixyChick and all those who've had some hard knocks..know that you aren't alone. Also know that you never earned or DESERVED what life handed you...sometimes shit happens, and it can happen to anyone!

The important thing is never giving up, never let it beat you down!

You guys are awesome. :)

[jennaflower]

I am completely in awe of all of you that posted in this thread. Everyone of you has once again proven that this place is a wonderful place to meet a wide range of diverse people. Everyone of you has touched me more than you know..

Deep secrets... I really really wish I had one... but alas I really don't... not that I wouldn't share with any of you during a converation. I am a pretty open book.. I have "secrets" but only those that I haven't had time to tell... None of them are dark.. and rather boring..

Oh.. here is one...

I am currently smitten with a Married man. Does he know? I would think he might have an indication or two... but alas.. he is married.. and far away... so this will only feed my fantasies.. nothing else.

[Pussy Willow]

Posting my pics here at pixie's is my deep dark secret.
You all know it, and I know it, but we're the only ones......

OMG-- My mom would would have a cow if she knew,
I don't really think hubby would mind, but I enjoy keep Ya'll
my little secret.

Thanks again for all the sexy support, it's been a real boost to my
confidence!!!!!

[Sugarsprinkles]

Originally posted by Ironwood
Oh, and I'm having a mad passionate affair with someone here.

Me too........I'm sure that's no secret here and if it was, it ain't no more. :D:D But NO ONE in my real life knows about it. ;) And never will, if I can help it!

[Uncle Silky]

my piercing mentor blew me for an hour-and-a-half one day after work. that man spit-polished knob like an obsessive-compulsive locksmith. best i've ever had, hands-down.

when i was a kid, i buried a cat up to its neck and plowed over its head with a lawnmower. that liduid 'thud' sticks with me to this day. and that anguished yowling... *headshake*

i pretended to have appendicitis and even went through the surgery just to get a three-day weekend away from school.

one of these is false. can you guess which one?

[Lilith]

The Cat

[Aqua]

Hmmmm, besides the fact that NO ONE I know outside of Pixies knows that I post here... well........

When I was a young teen, I gave a friend a bj while playing in a big cardboard box in front of my Grandma's house. :eek: And no, I didn't complete the job...

[Summer]

I lost my virginity at the ripe old age of 9. Definitely not by choice but did happen.

When I was 12 or 13 a girl friend of mine and I rubbed on each other. We had our clothes on but would rub on each other's pussy to where you got that tingling sensation. :) ;)

I moved out of my parents house at the age of 14 and lived on the streets until I found somewhere to go.

My first boyfriend committed suicide with a hand gun to the head.

And my biggest secret to this day ....
Posting pics on this site and having close relations to a person online.
Shhhhh don't tell. ;)
-Summer :D

[jennaflower]

Summer...

all of that.. tragic.. interesting... and revealing stuff... is all part of what makes you who you are... and ultimately why you are adored here :)

Like I said earlier in the thread... I am in awe of everyone here.. .:)

[Summer]

Originally posted by jennaflower
Summer...

all of that.. tragic.. interesting... and revealing stuff... is all part of what makes you who you are... and ultimately why you are adored here :)
Why thank you. ;)
-Summer :D

[Coach Knight]

MMMM, I actually skipped over this thread several times but I just starting reading some of the things shared here.
What's my big secret?

First, contrary to what most of my posts indicate, I am .... and you may not believe it but, I am really a nice guy. Very few people here have actually cut through my sarcastic/cynical/sardonic persona. But they know and, well, now I guess all of you do too.

Second, well, I too have been having "close relations to a person online." It is something that I never thought would happen when I first came here and I am completely surprised that it did. But, I am glad about it.

*deep breaths, deep breaths*

OK, well, now I must go be rude and insensitive for a few minutes to regain my composure.

LOL

CK

[Irish]

jjjjbo;Lixy;and I'm SURE others.Don't let the alcoholic parent thing
bother you.As a recovering alcoholic;I can tell you;that there are
alot more alcoholics;then you think!The steriotype;is someone in
in a dirty overcoat;needing a shave,dirty,and his bottle in a paper
-bag.I have been thru MANY detox centers.You see priests,
lawyers,politicians,cops,firemen,postmen,housewifes,etc.Now I
realise that they all affect many people.Yesterday;was 10yrs4mo
for me;but I realise now;that you aren't going to quit until you're
ready inside.You have to WANT TO! Irish
P.S.The road to hell;is paved with good intentions!Pardon my rambling on.It is a very personal thing with me!Thank God that I
had a wife&kids;who loved me enough to stick by me!

[jjjjbo]

Irish thanks for your words .... I long ago came to terms with the alcoholism and along the way have learned some really incredible lessons .... it doesn't make sense, but I'm more innocent, trusting and giving and so many other "good" things in my 40's then I ever could have been in my 20's - that is because I had to come to terms with my personal demons and make a concsious choice of who and how I want to be because of or inspite of my personal life history.

I had a friend once tell me they never could have survived (mentally) with all I had gone through .... that amazed me ... we all go through what we go through .... my life has never seemed all that difficult in the living of it - still doesn't - I know of and have read here of so many more difficult situations, at least in my viewpoint.....but it is an interesting thing that, at least it seems to me, we are given a way to learn what we need to in order to get through our own struggles and much of that comes from the people who touch our lives. Many Pixies people have become that for me. Thanks everyone!!!!

[sassylove]

Pixies is my "deep dark secret." In my "normal" every day life, I am a "good little girl!"

[incitatus]

Yesterday;was 10yrs4mo

Congratulations, Irish!

I wish everyone here as much success in confronting and controlling their "demons".



My secret is none too deep nor dark...

I was married to someone for several years and only a half dozen people knew it. (Although I'm close to my family -parents and siblings- no one ever knew)

Sexual secrets? none that I know of... unless ya'll know something I don't.