RIGHT, ya fucker!

[dm383]

Went for my CT Scan this evening, and got called back to see the Consultant.

I have Stage 4 Cancer in the base of my tongue, which has spread to two of the lymph nodes in my neck. He reckons combination Chemo/radio-therapy will kill the worst, with possible surgery as a back-up. Obviously, he won't know ALL there is to know til the CT results are back on Monday, but he doesn't really see much changing between now and then.

A good time to go and buy another BIG motorbike, methinks - might not get another chance!!

[Lilith]

Buy it! ((hugs)) You'll have it paid off and ready to ride like hell by the time the chemo/radiation are done. Make cancer your bitch. If anyone can you can.

[Aqua]

:withstupi

You didn't get stuck cancer... cancer got stuck with you, and I don't think it understands that it is now fucked.

Kick its ass, DM!

[dm383]

Cheers, guys!!

I guess I can always sic Lil on to it, "if the drugs don;'work........."


aaactuaalleee..........














"LILITH......... c'mere and........erm .............. well, we'll figure that out later!!"


:licker: :molest: :69: ;)

[pinkFlames]

Sorry to hear of your cancer DM, but it seems that you are the sort of person that will beat it before it beats you.

[dm383]

Sorry to hear of your cancer DM, but it seems that you are the sort of person that will beat it before it beats you.

Thanks darlin' - I certainly hope so!!

[Lilith]

I know despite all the bravado you must be scared. Let us know if there is anything we can do please.

[PantyFanatic]

Scared is a good thing. It's the bugle that calls all the body's troops to the front line of the invader. :gb:

[wyndhy]

fuckin'A that sucks ass. (((hugs))) sending lots of good thoughts your way, dm

[gekkogecko]

Well, that sucks raw moose cock.

[dm383]

Hey everybody - thanks so much for all your good thoughts!

Lil - I'm NOT scared...... I'm fuckin' terrified!! But I'd be properly fritted if I didn't know what was what, so I count myself lucky in that regard.

I penned a wee thing for another forum I frequent, that some of you might like; here it is.

Initial impressions were not good - several glimpses through the opening and closing door to the scanners' lair revealed a quiescent, yet somehow slightly threatening, huge, beige polo-mint, dominating the room with a quiet menace.

And so to the main event. Sliding onto the hard, leatherette bench, knots in the ties of the back-to-front hospital gown digging in to my back, venflon poking out through the skin of my arm like some kind of high-tech mole, I wait as the machine begins to beep and grunt.

Suddenly the bench moves, jerking slightly as it disappears into the bowels of the machine, carrying me with it - a reluctant passenger tonight. Back it goes, returning to it's original position to allow the very attractive young lady to appear over my head and re-adjust the venflon in my arm before, once again, the machine does it's impersonal work.

Finished now, I get up from the bench, expecting dizziness, swaying.... anything ..... but, nothing. Just an instruction to get dressed, and told to go 10 minutes later.

What an anti-climax!




Results on Monday.

[dicksbro]

DM you know you have the prayers of my wife and I and you've been added to a prayer tree at our church. If there is anything we can do for you, please let us know! I start chemo on the 24th for my colon cancer and so we're in this fight together ... and, what's more ... we're going to win the fight! ;)

[themi01]

DM never give up you will be in my prayers

[gekkogecko]

So, the purple worm swallowed you whole, but your adventuring party was able to cut your out before you took too much damage?

[citrus]

You're in my thoughts & will be lifted up often as I make the mindful rounds. . . .

[dm383]

DM you know you have the prayers of my wife and I and you've been added to a prayer tree at our church. If there is anything we can do for you, please let us know! I start chemo on the 24th for my colon cancer and so we're in this fight together ... and, what's more ... we're going to win the fight! ;)

Damn straight DB! This'll be the biggest fight I've ever had, no doubt, but you and I, with love and best wishes from our real & cyber friends (and a wee bit of help from somewhere's else) will win out.

Many thanks to all who've written here, or PM'd - too many to thank individually, but you all know who you are.
:cheers: (((HUGS)))

DM

[smithy020]

I hope you set right aboot it DM, Give it a right bootin!

[dm383]

I hope you set right aboot it DM, Give it a right bootin!

I'll certainly do my best Smithy - thanks, man!

Well, an update - saw my surgeon and the cancer specialist this morning. They reckon that Chemotherapy, followed by combination Chemo/Radio therapy is the way to go. This will all be done at the Beatson in Glasgow (Smithy and some others will probably know of it) and the whole thing kicks-off on the 22nd.

I start chemo on the 24th for my colon cancer and so we're in this fight together ... and, what's more ... we're going to win the fight!

I have to have a few preliminary things carried out prior to the actual therapy commencing, including having a mask made (to cover my ugly mug!!), so not sure exactly when the Chemo start-date is - but certainly by the end of the month.

On the positive side; both Doc's seem to think that with a mere smidgin of good fortune, the tumour(s) will be killed off, and in the fullness of time, I'll be back to the awkward, obnoxious gitI am now.

On the negative side; well, it hasn't improved my typing skills one iota! :)

P.S. DB - I hope this mutual-praying gig doesn't cancel itself out!!

DM

[Lilith]

It doesn't. Cause there many more prayers being said than you even know about.

BTW- I just signed both of your petitions. You can ask Wyndhy what that means.

[dm383]

It doesn't. Cause there many more prayers being said than you even know about.

BTW- I just signed both of your petitions. You can ask Wyndhy what that means.

Grrrrrr ...... I hate riddles!! :banghead:

[wyndhy]

asked and answered and if i had any control over the other, i'd fix that too. lots of love and good luck!

[dm383]

Got my treatment schedule through today. I have to get a plastic face-mask made on 8th July, a CT "simulation the day after, then radiotherapy starts on 5th August ~ 5 days a week until the end of September.

Oh joy!!

[wyndhy]

a little fyi (if you don't want any just tell me to stuff it) the burn didn't get bad for me until the last week (week 5) and the worst pain was AFTER treatment was over, about a week and half later.

are you going to lose your sense of taste?

[Lilith]

Will the burns be outside or inside? I recently took this medicine, carafate. It's to help lesions and ulcers to heal. It completely coats things. Can you be given something like that to coat your mouth and throat after treatments?

[dm383]

a little fyi (if you don't want any just tell me to stuff it) the burn didn't get bad for me until the last week (week 5) and the worst pain was AFTER treatment was over, about a week and half later.

are you going to lose your sense of taste?

The info sheets, and the specialist nurse, both say exactly that - the pain is worse after the treatment, as are with the side-effects too! Looking at the schedule, it's 6 1/2 weeks of radiotherapy - haven't got the Chemo schedule yet.

Will the burns be outside or inside? I recently took this medicine, carafate. It's to help lesions and ulcers to heal. It completely coats things. Can you be given something like that to coat your mouth and throat after treatments?

Both, apparently. Again, the info tells me I have to shave all my fcial hair to have the mask made (I've had my moustache since I was 17, so that'll be really weird!!) and to buy an electric shaver tominimise the aggro to my skin.
Happy days - haven't used one of them since....... well, I don't know when!
DM

[scotzoidman]

Haven't been avoiding this thread, just haven't anything to add to it...till now.

Cancer. Kick its hairy little ass.

[dm383]

Haven't been avoiding this thread, just haven't anything to add to it...till now.

Cancer. Kick its hairy little ass.

Abso-fuckin-lutely, Scotz.

Me and DB both.

[txgrneyes]

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG.....How did I miss this.

You are both in my prayers. If it would help I would hold my breath until you both beat this, but then I believe I would pass out and hopefully my body would start again....so that wont help anyone. So the most I can do is the prayers.

I know that you can beat this. The only advise is live like there is no tommorrow...tell everyone what you think today....and most of all know that you are loved. (by me too).

Is there anything I can do?

Nat :heartbeat

[Fangtasia]

I'm finding threads to do with the Big C still difficult to deal with.....please dont think my absence in here (or any others) means you arent in my thoughts & prayers.

[dm383]

Nat ~ partly my fault I think, for not updating it like I said I would. I will do that in a minute....... btw, prayers are good - thank you!

Fangtasia ~ no worries darlin'; and thanks for the thoughts!

[dm383]

So, Wednesday was the day I had to get my mask made. I'd been told, though I can't remember who by, this is made from the same papier mache-type stuff fruit and other items are packaged in, and I would have to shave my moustache off (which I've had now for about 30 years!) So, I did.

Into the Beatson Treatment floor, and chatting to the tech while he explains the procedure, he shows me the material they use - THERMOPLASTIC!

And it doesn't cover your mouth/lips!! Raging is NOT the word!!!! FYI, I have convinced myself it would have fallen out eventually anyway, as most of my hair seems to be doing at the moment, but it's no real consolatiion!

Anyway, this TP comes in the form of a thickish mesh, which is heated to about 70 degrees (Celsius) then (quickly!) moulded over the contours of your face & shoulders as it cools. There are quick-release "poppers" which hold you to the carbon-fibre table, seven sets IIRC, which is actually not as claustrophobic as I thought it was going to be!

Once he'd trimmed it up a bit, he showed me it - it's quite bizarre to see a 3-D rendition of yourself! I had to go back on Thursday to undergo a "CT Simulation", which is where the mask is used to 'strap me down' and determine exactly where the X-ray beam is to be deployed, and where the entry/exit points on my skin will be. That's important in order that I can manage my 'skin regime' right from the word go. (It gets very red and sore during the treatment - like very bad sunburn, outside AND inside!)

The Mask (http://i171.photobucket.com/albums/u307/DM383/Mask.jpg)

Wearing this for the ten minutes or so it took for them to do a CT scan was, quite possibly, the most intensely horrible thing I've ever had done to me! I'm a wee bit claustrophobic at the best of times, and lying there, pinned to a carbon-fibre table, eyes shut because of the mask, wasn't my idea of a good time. And I've to do that another 33 times!! Oh Joy! :(

I shall do my best to update this thread properly in future!! ;)

Incidentally, I copied this from another (car!!) Forum I'm a member of, hence the editing x 2!!!

[Lilith]

I'm not sure if you can get your hands on it but my sis swore by the emu oil we sent her to treat the burns.

That contraption is so scary for me too. I have issues with anything that makes me feel trapped so they would have to sedate me. You are so brave. btw 33 is my lucky number so I think that is a great sign that you will be blasting that fucker right outta there!

[dm383]

I'm not sure if you can get your hands on it but my sis swore by the emu oil we sent her to treat the burns.

That contraption is so scary for me too. I have issues with anything that makes me feel trapped so they would have to sedate me. You are so brave. btw 33 is my lucky number so I think that is a great sign that you will be blasting that fucker right outta there!

I shall definitely investigate Lil - thanks.

DM

[Coaster]

I have not been around of late DM or I would have posted sooner. I KNOW that you'll make it 33 (my lucky number too) more times too. Maybe post a "C" with a circle around it and slash thru it on that big bike you'll be getting! Right across the gas tank so ever time you look down you'll see how many punches you've given!

Many prayers coming your (and DB's) way! Stay strong oh Pixie warrior! :D

[scotzoidman]

re: The Mask - Lil says she couldn't stand to wear it, but something tells me she wouldn't have any problem using it on someone else...in her dungeon...

[gekkogecko]

Pretty much where I was going, Scotzoid...DM383 in Lil's Dungeon. I can so see this hapening. And without a lot of protest on either side.

[Lilith]

Starts thinking about what all she can fit into that one opening...

[dm383]

Keep thinking those thoughts, Lil!! :D

I'm back in hospital tomorrow (Friday), early-doors, and although I can get to use the internet, it's in an "internet cafe" type setting so I'm not able able to visit here. I can "talk" with PantyFanatic via Facebook (when he remembers he's got it, that is!!) so if anyone has anything vital to tell me, please do so via PF.

Won't be long - be back home on Wednesday next, with any luck, and looking forward to lots of sexy new pics from our wonderful Pixie ladies.

DM

[osuche]

I'm sending healing, sexy thoughts your way, DM. You will kick this cancer's ass, of that I have no doubt.

[gekkogecko]

Ug.

What a hassle.

[dm383]

Eventually managed to come home this morning, after the last bag of Chemo finally decided to finish at 03:15! Talk about tedious - waking up at what seemed like every 10 minutes, only to see NO change in the levels.. Aaaargh!

Anyway, home now, and the dogs went absolutely crazy when they saw me, which was nice. Funnily enough, the Spaniel is the one we thought would be the least bothered about, well, anything really, but not so; he's been quite clingy with H, pestering her for attention almost all the time - not like him at all! Not quite enough to put him off his food though!! ;)

So, a wee rest now, then in for CT Simulation No. 2 next Thursday followed by commencement of the Radiotherapy on August 5th. I have to stay in overnight a couple of times over the course of the ensuing 6 weeks for additional Chemo, but I'm sure I'll manage!! This past 6 days have been sooo tedious - I guess first admission wasn't so bad, because everything was new and different, whereas this time........ well, watching paint dry would have been more fun!!

Righto, time for my nap........ see y'all later!

[gekkogecko]

You need sudoku books or some such?

[dm383]

You need sudoku books or some such?

No sir, but thanks for the thought! Never managed to get into Sudoku, and my concentration of late has been pretty piss-poor TBH - it's been all I can do to even spend half an hour online!

Thursday past, I had the CT Simulation of what will be my 34 (I miscounted! :( ) radiotherapies, which first of all involved re-shaping "The Mask". That alone took nearly 40 minutes, and by the time they'd run the 2 sims required - well, let's just say I wasn't the happiest chappie in the world! Me and wee spaces/close-fitting masks just don't mix! Thankfully, the actual treatments will last 10 minutes each, tops.

Overnight Chemo #1 is next Friday/Saturday (what a bummer!) then into the every weekday routine. I, along with H and my daughter, am going to see a Brit comedian called Bill Bailey on the 21st, which I fear will be my last public outing until about mid October, maybe later, due to the burning of the skin and oesophagus which will be caused by the radiotherapy. Hopefully I'll at least manage a few laughs before that..... :huh:

Nothing much more to say at the moment, except thanks to all those who have sent, and continue to send, their love and best wishes. You all know who you are, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

DM

[Lilith]

Don't forget to ask the Dr about Carafate and get some emu oil for the burns. ((hugs)) Did you hear the lead singer of the Beastie Boys has some type of throat cancer too.

[dm383]

Don't forget to ask the Dr about Carafate and get some emu oil for the burns. ((hugs)) Did you hear the lead singer of the Beastie Boys has some type of throat cancer too.

Forgot about the Emu oil - I'll check that out today. Thanks Lil. :molest:

[gekkogecko]

Blech. Well, hope you continue to hold up.

[dm383]

Quick update. In overnight Friday/Saturday for more Chemo - unfortunately it's not regime where I can have it in a pump a la dicksbro - because it canaffect your kidneys, I have to stay in and have my obs done, urine output monitored and a total of 3 1/2 litres of fluids over and above the actual meds.

To say I feel awash at the moment is rather understating things!!

Still here, though, and still fighting! Onwards to another week of radiotherapy, and a neck that is getting red from same even after only 3 treatments!!

:banghead:

[Lilith]

((hugs)) wish I could make it better.

[Salacious]

Oh, DM such news. Sending you love and hugs.

[dm383]

Oh, DM such news. Sending you love and hugs.

Thankyou, sweetheart.

Not much happening at the moment. I've now had 11 radiotherapy treatment fractions out of 33, so things are moving on. Not much redness to my neck yet, although there is an interesting pinkiness appearing! Unfortunately, what I had thought to be a tickly cough over the weekend is actually the start of the skinburn to the inside of my throat - not nice at all!
I've now got medication to deal with it, and a nice numbing liquid medicine to enable easier eating. The main issue is tiredness - I seem to be spending longer and longer periods of time sleeping during the day - which is set to increase as time goes on. Still, if that's the worst that happens, I won't be complaining!!

DM

[gekkogecko]

Hey, they'll make a redneck out of you yet.

[dm383]

Hey, they'll make a redneck out of you yet.

Oh they will indeed - literally!! :rolleyes2

DM

[dicksbro]

Prayers continue for sure, DM! Your about a third done with your treatments and I just finished 5 or twelve. We're moving along and, Lord willing, we're going to be Pixies for a very long time to come! I've found I'm a bit more tired than I used to be. I've always liked an hour nap in the afternoon, but I get in a few more now ... expecially the Sunday and Monday following chemo.

See, now I can blame something besides getting older. ;) That's one of the perks. :)

[dm383]

Had an interesting wee chat with the clinic nurse this morning. It seems that the therapy regime I'm on [aggressive chemo followed by IMRT radiotherapy] is offered only TWICE every month, due to the relative newness of the IMRT and the complexities and time to plan and set up (about 6 weeks!!!)

Now, I knew this was a hard-core treatment option from the start, and I've been lucky enough to "dodge" the majority of the really unpleasant side-effects, but I didn't realise just how uncommon this particular treatment plan actually is. Added to which, 'my' hospital is the only one in Scotland to even offer it as an option; so, I have been blessedly lucky threefold now - diagnosed in time, offered a rare treatment (which seems to be working well, so far) AND few side-effects.

And some people have been dissing the NHS recently - all I can say is, fuck them ALL!! The NHS rocks!! :D

DM

[dm383]

In for my (hopefully) last overnight Chemo on Monday night, finally managed to get home by 2p.m. yesterday! It's weird, though, that I felt fine up until I took the anti-sickness pills they gave me, late last night, and promptly threw up all over the kitchen!! Yuk. (Apologies to those of a fragile disposition!!)

Still, it feels good knowing there are no more in-patient shenanigans to endure!

DM

[Teddy Bear]

((((((dm))))))

Thinking of you and sending prayers and healing thoughts your way.

Never give up!!! Remember it's always darkest just before dawn.

[dm383]

((((((dm))))))

Thinking of you and sending prayers and healing thoughts your way.

Never give up!!! Remember it's always darkest just before dawn.

Thanks Teddy.

It's just that of all the things that can happen to a person when they're sick, actually being sick (i.e. vomiting) is the single most objectionable thing I've ever experienced. I've always tried (though not always successfully!) to avoid it wherever possible!!

[Teddy Bear]

Absolutely agree with you 100%, that is the worst!!

Hang in there. *huge hugs* and wishes for better days sent to you!!!!! <3 <3

[Lilith]

What peeves me is that there is a drug that is almost 100% effective at preventing people from puking but it is very $$$$$$ so doctors do not order it.

[Teddy Bear]

I thought there was something they could give but wasn't positive. Thanks Lil for confirming. So now the question is.... How can anybody get this stuff? (In particular our DM.)

[gekkogecko]

It's weird, though, that I felt fine up until I took the anti-sickness pills they gave me, late last night, and promptly threw up all over the kitchen!!


Irony. No, we don't get that here. I used to be the only practitioner, but I had to stop. People were giving me strange looks.

[scotzoidman]

What peeves me is that there is a drug that is almost 100% effective at preventing people from puking but it is very $$$$$$ so doctors do not order it.
Not to mention a certain herbal med that's been an effective anti-nausea treatment for centuries, but just happens to be *illegal*

Makes people giggle a lot, too...& isn't laughter the best medicine of all?

[Teddy Bear]

That herbal med is good for alot of things, MS I know is one. Depression, anxiety attacks, glucoma (no idea how to spell it, the eye thing, lose sight) all real issues, and I'm sure there are more, that could possibly be helped if it were legal for medical use.

[scotzoidman]

That herbal med is good for alot of things, MS I know is one. Depression, anxiety attacks, glucoma (no idea how to spell it, the eye thing, lose sight) all real issues, and I'm sure there are more, that could possibly be helped if it were legal for medical use.
glaucoma (only because I've got Firefox with spellcheck :) )

That's only one of the many things I don't get about the world today - when a drug's benefits far outweigh its dangers, & costs of enforcement of laws against it far outweigh de-criminalization, why, oh why, do we continue with the status quo? If one of the Big Pharma companies could patent it, we'd have legal weed tomorrow.

[gekkogecko]

...why, oh why, do we continue with the status quo?


If one of the Big Pharma companies could patent it, we'd have legal weed tomorrow.

...

[dm383]

Well, as of today, I now have nine more treatments to go. (I meant to post this yesterday, but there you go!!!)

I spoke to various perfeshnull people yesterday about my vomiting etc., and have been prescribed yet another anti-sickness pill, and a stronger-acting laxative to "assist your bowels Mr. H..". Lovely. Still, it did mean keeping down everything I ate yesterday, which has to be good thing, right?

Unfortunately, I also received another in-patient appointment for the Chemo I thought was finished (and, indeed, was told on leaving the ward last Tuesday) so need to get that sorted when my Consultant comes back off his holidays. I so don't want another Chemo admission - that's what made me feel this way in the first place, and as it's a cumulative thing I can only imagine how I'd feel after another one! Still, if he says I must, I guess I must!

DM

[gekkogecko]

"My doctor's drugs can beat up your doctor's drugs!"

[Maleslut1186]

All,
No intention to demean this fine discussion , this is an old sailors saying ,
The only sure fire cure for sea sickness is to stand under a tree

[Maleslut1186]

Best Wishes to DM383

[dm383]

So, I'm now down to only 5 R/T sessions, or ONE WEEK to go! The sickness is pretty much gone now, to my relief, but I've been told that "it would greatly benefit the efficacy of the radiotherapy" if I go in for the other dose of Chemo they scheduled me for next week - so that's that, I guess.

Back on the plus side, I managed not to lose any more weight this week, after losing 4 kilo's (9 pounds, roughly) last week. My skin is still in fairly good nick and my throat is no worse than it has been for the past 3 weeks or so now - all-in-all, I seem to have suffered only minimal side-effects from all the treatment, just need to hope it's all worked now!!

DM

[gekkogecko]

Yeah, what you said.

[osuche]

Glad it's going well! ((((DM))))

[dm383]

...... and the only really intrusive side-effect is several rather severe mouth ulcers.

The ulcers are a major pain, in more ways than one. I couldn't use OTC preparations because, bizarrely, they all contain alcohol in one form or another, which the X-rays of the therapy simply boils - nippy.
They did give me a protective paste called Orobase, but that is soluble and "washes off" in no time - pretty useless really. I've been using Sodium Bicarbonate mouthwashes, which I'll increase now, and also a liquid called Oxetecaine which is a mild local anaesthetic. Oh, and effervescent Co-Codamol for pain.

None of it really does much (apart from the Co-codamol) but now the R/T is finished, hopefully things will start to clear up in a week or so.

By the way, did I mention my treatment's FINISHED?!?!??! :D :D Yee-Haaaaaaaah!! Out-patient appointment in a month and 6 months (6-month one will include a scan) then if all's well it's back to my local hospital for 5 years follow-up. Whew - seems a lot from here!!!

[jseal]

dm383,

Congratulations! I am sure you are now in remission, and at the 5 year exam, you will be moved to the "cured" column! :thumb:

[gekkogecko]

WhooHoo!

[pinkFlames]

Well done DM. :D

[Teddy Bear]

WhooHoo!

Yes!!!!! What he said ^ ^ ^ ^ and add a few !!!!!

WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!

So glad to hear DM! Continued prayers and well wishes sent your way.
And of course a bigggg teddy bear hug... ((((((((DM))))))))

[dm383]

It's been a while, but an update beckons.

I was in for my first out-patient appointment two and a bit weeks ago and the (not my Consultant) doctor wanted me to come in for another scan, despite my Consultant telling me I wouldn't get one for 6 months due to the tissue damage the radiotherapy had caused.

Now, I was unperturbed by this at first - somewhat junior doc, I thought, covering his ass. OK. However - I looked at the appointment letter properly today, and it's for an ultrasound-guided fine-needle aspiration ~ in other words, exactly the same test that confirmed my original diagnosis. I can only presume it's to be on the slightly ambiguous-feeling 'muscle' I felt in my neck on Christmas Day.......

I can't help but feel slightly concerned about this (shitting myself might be nearer the mark!) so I'd be obliged for your continued good thoughts, people!

Thank you.

[dicksbro]

You absolutely have been, are, and will be in our prayers. The kids my wife watches also continue their prayers for you. We'll hope that it's as you suggested; a younger doctor that's just being extra cautious.

[gekkogecko]

On the upside, ultrasound doens't pump a bunch of radiation into your body, so yeah, maybe it really is a CYA thing.

[AngelicVampires]

*Hugs* Keeping you in my thoughts dm

[dm383]

My thanks and good thoughts to you all folks!

Well, I had the ultrasound, as planned, coincidentally by the same doctor who did my original, diagnosis-finding scan. While he was unable to offer a definitive "official" comment, he did say that he could see no untoward objects or shadows on the screen, and when compared to my original scans, he said that all signs of the tumour present at that time were gone.

All in all, I feel very much more positive than I did (not hard!!) and now I just have to wait for the "official" confirmation. Oddly, he had no note of the 'fine-needle aspiration' that was mentioned on my appointment letter, nor did he say there was anything actually there to aspirate .... which is good!!

[PantyFanatic]

Some more http://smileys.on-my-web.com/repository/Others/good-news-175.gif for another Pixie. :line:


This must be the year we've been looking for. :thumbs:

[Aqua]

Glad to hear things are on the up, DM!

[Oldfart]

Good news is best when it's about people we like.

[dm383]

Just thought I'd let you all know the latest. Saw my own Doctor last week, who hadn't heard from the hospital following my last ultrasound. He suggested I phone my Consultant's secretary direct, which I did, and she was able to inform me no interim appointment was required and that I am scheduled for my next routine follow-up appointment on 2nd March - the day before my birthday!

She said that no abnormalities had been detected from the scan, and they hadn't written to my own Doctor as there was nothing to report! Ah well, it just proves that no news really is good news I guess!! :D

DM

[gekkogecko]

So, happy birthday? OK, over a month from now, but still...

[dm383]

Cheers GG. :thumbs:

DM

[Lilith]

Good news. Love hearing it!

[Oldfart]

Happy to hear. Now get back to posting!

[dm383]

Happy to hear. Now get back to posting!

Yessir!!

[Oldfart]

Isn't obedience a wonderful thing?

[Lilith]

Isn't obedience a wonderful thing?


Yes ;)

[dm383]

Some real bossy buggers in here ~ so much so, that I'm going back to work today, to get away from it all!


Oh, wait a minute... work. bosses ...... aw, crapola! :banghead:



:D :D :D

DM

[dicksbro]

WORK!! :yikes:

There ya' go with those four-letter words again. :faint:





:D

[dm383]

WORK!! :yikes:

There ya' go with those four-letter words again. :faint:





:D

Saw-reeeeee! ;)

Well, week one wasn't too bad; using up some of my residual Annual Leave on a graduated return, so 10-2pm last week, and 9-1 this coming week before I start proper 9-5 shifts.

Must say, I can't wait to get a proper patient list up and running again, and back into a normal routine.

DM

[dicksbro]

Anything new to report? Things are going well here. Had my first quarterly follow-up with my doctor and all is looking good. Next one will be in June.

DM, whatcha say we just keep the good news coming! (BTW, those kids my wife watches haven't forgotten you and you and I are still on their prayer list. :thumbs: )

[dm383]

Anything new to report? Things are going well here. Had my first quarterly follow-up with my doctor and all is looking good. Next one will be in June.

DM, whatcha say we just keep the good news coming! (BTW, those kids my wife watches haven't forgotten you and you and I are still on their prayer list. :thumbs: )

Oops. Again.

Yes indeed; went for my first out-patient appointment on March 2nd, and after a deal of messing about with tongue depressors, fingers down throat (Drs fingers down my throat - yeuch!) and finally a camera up my nose and down the back of my throat - he finally declared himself satisfied with progress!!

Then my Consultant came in, and also declared himself happy. When I was about to leave, he told me I have to go back every 6 weeks, instead of 3-monthly, and for 18 months rather than a year. And go through the same things every time. :huh: Still, if it means I'm well, that's fine.

The Doc did congratulate me on my tolerance of his "mucking about" though - I wondered how well some others cope if that's the case? Anyhoo, next appointment is in two weeks time.

DB - yup, good news is absolutely okey-doke with me!! Please, ask Mrs DB to pass on my love and best wishes to all the kids .... whatever they're doing seems to be working!! :D Good to hear thing are good with you, too. Excellent progress for us both, it seems!

DM

[Lilith]

If fingers down your throat are a problem imagine a big dick!!!!!

[Fangtasia]

ROFL @ Lil

[dm383]

If fingers down your throat are a problem imagine a big dick!!!!!

I imagine that after a few more examinations like that, I might even prefer a big dick!!

I've never had the inclination to try, tbh (not for real anyway) but if it's anything like what happened then, you can keep it! Mind, even the biggest cock isn't as big as someones hand, is it?!?!?!

DM

[gekkogecko]

I'm certain that fingers up one's dick would hurt, no matter how big the dick is.

[dm383]

Right, out-patient appointment number 2, and all remains good. :)

My Consultant was doing his own clinic today, and did the whole tongue depressor/hand down throat/camera up nose thing and pronounced himself happy that nothing sinister is lurking inside my throat. He did comment that the scar from my left-side tonsillectomy has healed nicely too, which is nice!

Back again in six weeks.

[dm383]

Third one's the charm, eh? Seems so, as the Doc I had today was a real bear for the camera - damn thing felt like it was up my nose for hours! Anyhow, at the end of it all I'm once again declared a lurgy-free zone, so it's all good.

Back in 5 weeks (Consultant is on holidays in 6 weeks, and I'm only to go when he's around apparently!)
:line:

[PantyFanatic]

Seems good news all around. YAAAA for ya!!
:line:


:thumbs:

[dm383]

Seems good news all around. YAAAA for ya!!
:line:


:thumbs:

Thank you muchly PF ~ all the prayers and good wishes seem to be doing me the power of good!!

[Oldfart]

You don't get away from us that easily.

Great to hear it's clear.

[nikki1979]

Holy SH!T how the hell did i miss this and why was i not linked to this in my catch me up thread!!!!!!! OMG!!!! i was biting my nails and teary the whole time i read this!!! im so glad for the out come! but damn i wish i had been here for support while it was going on! im so sorry i was absent for this *******HUGS********

[dm383]

Holy SH!T how the hell did i miss this and why was i not linked to this in my catch me up thread!!!!!!! OMG!!!! i was biting my nails and teary the whole time i read this!!! im so glad for the out come! but damn i wish i had been here for support while it was going on! im so sorry i was absent for this *******HUGS********

No need for tears darlin' ..... it's all good! And you're here now, which makes me happy! (And I don't mean this thread, either...... :wtp: , sexy?!?!)

[nikki1979]

No need for tears darlin' ..... it's all good! And you're here now, which makes me happy! (And I don't mean this thread, either...... :wtp: , sexy?!?!)

i am here now yes :D but im still kicking my self in the but !!

[gekkogecko]

i am here now yes :D but im still kicking my self in the but !!

I thought that was Jeeping's job.

[nikki1979]

I thought that was Jeeping's job.


naw ;) he does something else with my butt ;) :booty:

[Teddy Bear]

((((((((DM))))))))

Just wanted to let you know i was thinking of ya. :)
Hope all is still going well with you.

[dm383]

((((((((DM))))))))

Just wanted to let you know i was thinking of ya. :)
Hope all is still going well with you.


Thanks sweetie - and backatcha, too!!

Been a bit remiss here again, too; had my latest check-up last week and all remains well, no sign or feel of anything nasty! Back again in 6 weeks - well, 5 now!!

DM

[gekkogecko]

Way to go, dude.

[wyndhy]

good good. i just know it'll stay that way too!

[dm383]

Check-up yesterday, saw "the Boss", who is very happy nothing nasty is lurking!

Since it's now almost a year since my treatment finished ( :faint: ), I'm now to go and see him every 2 months, rather than 6-weekly, though he wants me to go for an ultrasound as well just to be as sure as possible nothing untoward is lurking around.

All in all, a pretty good day!

DM

[Vicious Tease]

:x: So glad to hear you are doing well, darlin!

[pinkFlames]

Great news. :thumbs:

[nikki1979]

Woot Woot Woot!!!

[gekkogecko]

Way to go, dude!

[dm383]

Cheers all!

Happy bunny here, to be sure!

DM

[jseal]

An impressive tour de force of medical technology. Even one generation ago such achievements would have been most unlikely.

Congratulations. :thumb:

[dm383]

Recent events have reminded me I have been extremely lax in updating this thread.

I was in for check-up number 12 last week, and again all remains clear. Seen by "The Boss" for the third time in a row, who has now moved me to 3-monthly visits. I must confess that I had a wee blip round Christmas time, where I thought I could feel, well, something in my neck; however, another really thorough ultrasound put my mind at ease re that, so all is good for me.

Not such good news about my ex wife though. Now, I can't remember if I mentioned her developing breast cancer round about the time I finished my treatment schedule; apologies if not. Anyway, she had the whole chemo-mastectomy-reconstruction surgery thing, and all appeared good for her, too.
Unfortunately, just before Christmas, she found she had developed metastases in both her spinal cord and brain, which gave her a really lousy prognosis. Sadly, she passed away on (Easter) Monday morning, aged just 42.

I would like to point out now, that I'm not posting this for myself; rather, for my 17-year old daughter, who has lost a loving and devoted mother. For those of you who believe, a prayer for my daughter and her own continued good health both physical and mental would be very much appreciated. For those who don't believe, a simple good thought for her will also be most welcome, and also much appreciated.

Thanks for reading, and may you all enjoy the best of health.

DM

[Aqua]

Glad to hear you're doing well, dm!

So sorry to hear about your ex, though. Saying a prayer for your daughter.

[Lilith]

How sad. ((hugs)) for the baby girl.

[wyndhy]

:( too young to lose her mom. (((hugs)))

[dm383]

Thank you Aqua, and ladies.

Daughter wants to visit the funeral home tomorrow, to say "goodbye" to her mum by herself, something that wasn't possible last week (for various reasons, mostly to do with her grandmother - a long, sad story I won't trouble you with.)

The funeral is on Wednesday, which will be a humanist service as per my ex's wishes.

Thanks again for the {{hugs}}. I shall pass them on.

DM

[Lilith]

Did your baby get to go say good-bye? When my Grams died, when it was my tie to go in the visitation room I closed the door behind me. Apparently this shocked others but I needed time to be alone with what was no longer her. I needed to say good-bye without having to worry if my actions and feelings were hurting others or being embarrassed by them. Peeps heard me through the door and kept knocking and I just told them to go away, that I'd be out when I was ready.

Let her go and block the door for her. Let her say good-bye her way.

[pinkFlames]

I'm terribly sorry to hear of your daughter's loss, DM.

[dm383]

Did your baby get to go say good-bye? When my Grams died, when it was my tie to go in the visitation room I closed the door behind me. Apparently this shocked others but I needed time to be alone with what was no longer her. I needed to say good-bye without having to worry if my actions and feelings were hurting others or being embarrassed by them. Peeps heard me through the door and kept knocking and I just told them to go away, that I'd be out when I was ready.

Let her go and block the door for her. Let her say good-bye her way.

She did Lil, thank you. She spent the time alone with her mum that she wanted, and seemed almost - serene? yes - afterwards. A good decision I think, for someone so young, and extremely maturely handled.

The service was unusually pleasant; relaxed, unstressed and, in parts, actually quite amusing! Sad too, of course, but a very good turn-out for her, and a goodly sum of money raised via collection for two charities close to my ex's heart.

Today my daughter told me that last night she dreamed of her mum, for the first time since she died. She was a wee bit upset about that, but I've reassured her this is utterly normal and will probably happen again. The most distressing thing was, the dream "morphed" into Miley Cyrus singing some ridiculous song! (Nothing new there, then!) Good to know she can still laugh.

I'm terribly sorry to hear of your daughter's loss, DM.

Thank you sweetie.

DM

[gekkogecko]

The most distressing thing was, the dream "morphed" into Miley Cyrus singing some ridiculous song!

Well, yeah, I can see how that would upset anyone.

[Teddy Bear]

DM, first I'm so glad to hear you are doing well. Continued good health to you.

Sending prayers and hugs to your daughter on the loss of her Mom.

[Rhiannon]

soo sorry for you loss DM but glad your daughter got to say goodbye
When my father died i was not brave enough to say good bye as he was deaf.

[dm383]

Thought I'd put a few words in here.

Had check-up number 18 on Tuesday (18? Jings!) and had the Boss again; either he's getting better, or I was half asleep - a neck palpation, look down my throat using depressors, and camera up nose (Yeee-uccchh!! :( ) seemed to take only seconds! Anyway, 3 years and two months post-treatment and no signs of any nasties returning, so all is well in DM-land. Not back til April next year now! Woot woot!!

DM

[gekkogecko]

18? You're check-ups are "barely legal"?

Hey, good work on beating this thing. And by thing, I don't mean your cock.

[Aqua]

Excellent news, DM!! Glad to hear it!!

[Oldfart]

Yup.

[pinkFlames]

Fantastic!

[dicksbro]

Thought I'd put a few words in here.

Had check-up number 18 on Tuesday (18? Jings!) and had the Boss again; either he's getting better, or I was half asleep - a neck palpation, look down my throat using depressors, and camera up nose (Yeee-uccchh!! :( ) seemed to take only seconds! Anyway, 3 years and two months post-treatment and no signs of any nasties returning, so all is well in DM-land. Not back til April next year now! Woot woot!!

DM
Sorry I missed this back in November, but, you just made our Christmas with that great news, DM! The Mrs. and I keep you in our prayers (and will continue to do so). Really happy for you! Talk about a MERRY CHRISTMAS! I think you won the prize! :D

[dm383]

Sorry I missed this back in November, but, you just made our Christmas with that great news, DM! The Mrs. and I keep you in our prayers (and will continue to do so). Really happy for you! Talk about a MERRY CHRISTMAS! I think you won the prize! :D

Thanks DB! :D

Merry Christmas to you and yours!

DM

[dm383]

Been a bit lax with this thread …. again!

So, today was check-up #21 as an out-patient, 6 days shy of 4 years after my very last radiotherapy session. Not the Boss today, but his senior registrar, so nearly as good!

Usual palpating of the throat, look-see using those ultra-wide lollipop stick things, fingers in throat (pressing quite hard - yuk!) then the thing I hate most ~ the camera up the nose!

Not pleasant, and the clinic was running even later than usual, but as it resulted in a clean bill of health I could care less!

Further news on the plus side - don't need to go back again for SIX months!! Yee-haawww!! :D :D :D

DM

[Lilith]

Grats!!!!

[WildIrish]

Awesome news!!!

[gekkogecko]

Further news on the plus side - don't need to go back again for SIX months!! Yee-haawww!! :D :D :D

DM

With all the playing with your throat they did, does that last comment indicate that they turned you into a redneck?

[dm383]

With all the playing with your throat they did, does that last comment indicate that they turned you into a redneck?

Almost gg! In fact, at one stage the inside of my throat was suffering the equivalent of acute 2nd degree burns - or bad sunburn, to maintain the analogy!

Not nice, as I recall. :(

DM

[dicksbro]

Been a bit lax with this thread …. again!

So, today was check-up #21 as an out-patient, 6 days shy of 4 years after my very last radiotherapy session. Not the Boss today, but his senior registrar, so nearly as good!

Usual palpating of the throat, look-see using those ultra-wide lollipop stick things, fingers in throat (pressing quite hard - yuk!) then the thing I hate most ~ the camera up the nose!

Not pleasant, and the clinic was running even later than usual, but as it resulted in a clean bill of health I could care less!

Further news on the plus side - don't need to go back again for SIX months!! Yee-haawww!! :D :D :D

DM
Thank God for the clean bill of health. You've never left our prayers and we'll continue with them!

Great news!

[dm383]

Thank God for the clean bill of health. You've never left our prayers and we'll continue with them!

Great news!

Thank you DB. Good to know we're both doing well. :)

DM

[jseal]

dm383,

:thumbs:

[dm383]

Check-up #22 today ….. and also the penultimate one! :yikes:

All clear, as per usual, and the danger period for relapse is now drawing to a close. One more at the end of September and that'll be it til 2019!!

Yay me. :D

DM

[BIBI]

yeah... for you dm......your a very lucky man!

[dm383]

yeah... for you dm......your a very lucky man!

And well I know it BIBI! :)

DM

[Lilith]

Such happy news.

[gekkogecko]

Woo, and also Hoo!

[WildIrish]

That's a great update!

[Aqua]

Great news!!

[Teddy Bear]

So happy for you DM!!








Where's the party??

[dm383]

Thanks again everyone for your kind words & thoughts.

It's just about 5 years since I first noticed the lump on my neck, which at the time I didn't really pay a great deal of attention to. I got very, very lucky to have it caught so early, and to be treated so wonderfully well & quickly by our National Health Service.

As for the party ….. that's every day, isn't it? ;)

DM

[gekkogecko]

Now that the lump in your throat is gone, who is going to be the lucky woman to raise welts on your behind?

[Teddy Bear]

As for the party ….. that's every day, isn't it? ;)

DM

YES !! You are correct. I hadn't really thought of that. Celebrate every day, make every day count, everyday given to us is a gift !



Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift,
That's why its called the present !

[dm383]

Five years ago today was the very last of my radiotherapy treatments, bringing to an end a 5 month episode of finding a lump in my neck, to blood tests, needles, more needles, CAT scans etc etc etc, culminating in 3 lots of week-long chemo and 34 sessions of IMRT; a then-new form of radiotherapy. (Incidentally, I was the 16th person to receive this as a form of neck cancer treatment in Scotland - of the 15 before me, over half have died, which is rather sobering).

Many people in my life contributed to helping me through some of the darkest days in my life, not the least of whom were the people who frequent this place, none of whom I have ever met and, probably, who I never will. (Though "never say never", as my motto remains after these many years!) The posts of support, good wishes (and the occasional piss-take!) and all round niceness, sums up all that is good about this place, and all those who frequent it.

Thanks for being there; you'll be seeing me here for many more years yet.

[Teddy Bear]

Wow! It's been 5 years?? Doesn't feel that long ago.

Hope you stay healthy, well, strong and sexy so that we will be seeing you here for a long, lonnnnggg time.

((((((dm383)))))

[gekkogecko]

you'll be seeing me here for many more years yet.

Allll riiiiiiiight.

[Lilith]

Love that you are still here perving with us.

[BIBI]

It is so wonderful to hear you have passed the five year milestone cancer free. Congratulations to you and best wishes for continued good health..... :kisser:

[dm383]

Thanks for the good wishes folks.

In some ways, it seems like only weeks ago I received the diagnosis and embarked on a journey of unknown duration; in other ways, though, it seems a long, long time ago!

I love my life and most of the elements in it, including coming to this wonderful place - even if I don't post much any more. It's a bit like being around an old, good friend; don't need to say much, but you know what each other is thinking!

DM

[gekkogecko]

don't need to say much, but you know what each other is thinking!

DM

So your foray into cancer/chemotherapy/radiation treatment has left you with mutant mind-reading powers?

[Teddy Bear]

So your foray into cancer/chemotherapy/radiation treatment has left you with mutant mind-reading powers?

*Wonders if he glows in the dark too.

[dm383]

*Wonders if he glows in the dark too.

Well, I do several things in the dark - not sure glowing is one of them though! ;)

DM

[gekkogecko]

You could always take pics, and post them to find out.

[Aqua]

Wow... 5 years?!

That's great dm!! :cheers:

[Oldfart]

Thanks for the good wishes folks.

In some ways, it seems like only weeks ago I received the diagnosis and embarked on a journey of unknown duration; in other ways, though, it seems a long, long time ago!

I love my life and most of the elements in it, including coming to this wonderful place - even if I don't post much any more. It's a bit like being around an old, good friend; don't need to say much, but you know what each other is thinking!

DM :)

[dicksbro]

DM, you know our prayers have been with you ... and now we get to offer more in thanks for your being cancer free now for five years. Keep it up ... let's see if we can both get another 5 ... no make it 10 more years of Pixie time under our belts! ;)

[dm383]

DM, you know our prayers have been with you ... and now we get to offer more in thanks for your being cancer free now for five years. Keep it up ... let's see if we can both get another 5 ... no make it 10 more years of Pixie time under our belts! ;)

As have mine with you.

And much appreciated too. :)

DM