txgrneyes
05-30-2009, 12:10 PM
I just want to get this out of my head...hope you don't mind I just need to put it out there since he can't get it in person due to the circumstances....
I never thought this would happen to me with you but it did. I fell in love with you. I only thought you would be a toy. Something I would play with every once in a while. But somehow you touch a part of me that no one has touched in a while and to be honest I thought I had built a wall around it around it that no one could get in. But you did. And I miss you so much when you are not here.
I catch myself walking into my room from getting off work and hope to find you laying in the my bed waiting for me. I actually have seen you there. I then reach down and my hand goes right through you and touches the sheets of the bed. Then of course reality hits and I know you are not there. But I still can't wait until I finally get to lay in bed at night. Even though you're not there right beside me in my mind we have so much to do. I talk to you, I touch you, I even love you. You smile at me, you talk to me, and you even love me. I can feel your touch on my skin and make love to me. I can't feel the weight of your body on mine or feel the way you snuggle against me when you are lying between my legs. We fit together so nicely. I love our pillow talk. I love the games that we play. I love just being with you.
Now you're leaving and I won't be seeing you until you make time for me if you ever do. I know I don't have to live this way "but the heart wants what the heart wants". I just wish your heart wanted me. I love you . What more is there to say.
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I never thought this would happen to me with you but it did. I fell in love with you. I only thought you would be a toy. Something I would play with every once in a while. But somehow you touch a part of me that no one has touched in a while and to be honest I thought I had built a wall around it around it that no one could get in. But you did. And I miss you so much when you are not here.
I catch myself walking into my room from getting off work and hope to find you laying in the my bed waiting for me. I actually have seen you there. I then reach down and my hand goes right through you and touches the sheets of the bed. Then of course reality hits and I know you are not there. But I still can't wait until I finally get to lay in bed at night. Even though you're not there right beside me in my mind we have so much to do. I talk to you, I touch you, I even love you. You smile at me, you talk to me, and you even love me. I can feel your touch on my skin and make love to me. I can't feel the weight of your body on mine or feel the way you snuggle against me when you are lying between my legs. We fit together so nicely. I love our pillow talk. I love the games that we play. I love just being with you.
Now you're leaving and I won't be seeing you until you make time for me if you ever do. I know I don't have to live this way "but the heart wants what the heart wants". I just wish your heart wanted me. I love you . What more is there to say.
n