Wicked Wanda
08-02-2007, 06:53 PM
Ok, I admit it, right here and now.
I am very insecure about several things. I am insecure about my height, (lack of) my bust size, (also lacking) my hips (my ass unfortunately is not lacking in size), and the current color of my hair. (Yes, last June I went... BLONDE!!!- for about 6 weeks)
I am secure in my personal sexuality, my professional abilities, and the level of education I have achieved. (MSN!!! WOO HOOO!!)
But here in our little world of Pixie's Place, I am most insecure when writing about that certain part of myself, the part of me that peeks out when relating details of sexual encounters, especially details of intimate relationships with others of my own gender.
I know I have not written much about my same sex encounters, as I find it difficult to be relaxed, open and objective.
I am also insecure about my narrative writing skills, the art of telling a story. I can comfortably write and present lengthy scholarly papers and monographs on Nursing, on politics and on Women's and Lesbian and bisexual issues (some of you here might say I write too much on these subjects) and feel happy about what and how I write.
But narrative writing, even when describing real events from my own life, is difficult for me.
Truthfully, I have never been able to write "fiction". It always come out so melodramatic, so overall bad I can never read my own writings. So I only write from my own experiences.
I have now (as of my recent post, "categories... hot moments" in Group Sex Stories) written in more detail about my sexual encounters with other women than ever before... and most importantly, I have made an attempt to describe me, the real me, the way my mind processes things, the details I notice about people, the odd little ideas that fly around in my head, and the way I feel emtionally and physically when I am sexually involved. This is scary stuff, and not easy for me. I mean, I actually sit here and blush when trying to describe my own orgasms.
So... I want your help.
Please provide me and the other writers here with feedback. If you hate what I write, if you think I am a freaky little bitch, then go ahead and say so. But say something!! Please.
I want to post the rest of this, but I want to hear from the Women and men of Pixies before I finish.
By the way, Leigh (my "part time" partner) has helped me edit and rewrite in the past, and she has always urged me to write in a new way, to try to find my own "voice".
She has urged me to try to write the same way I talk, using the same style of speech and vocabulary I use daily when talking with friends. I have tried in the past, without much real success, but I have kept trying.
After a marathon day- long writing effort to set down everything that happened that night while it was more or less fresh and clear in my mind, (I did my own editing, so any grammatical or other errors are mine, and mine alone, as they say) I posted Part One
This is me.
This really is the way I am, more or less, really the way I talk and think.
Well, at least more so than anything else I have written here previously.
Please write soon, so I can feel confident enough to post the next two parts.
Love,
Wicked Wanda.
I am very insecure about several things. I am insecure about my height, (lack of) my bust size, (also lacking) my hips (my ass unfortunately is not lacking in size), and the current color of my hair. (Yes, last June I went... BLONDE!!!- for about 6 weeks)
I am secure in my personal sexuality, my professional abilities, and the level of education I have achieved. (MSN!!! WOO HOOO!!)
But here in our little world of Pixie's Place, I am most insecure when writing about that certain part of myself, the part of me that peeks out when relating details of sexual encounters, especially details of intimate relationships with others of my own gender.
I know I have not written much about my same sex encounters, as I find it difficult to be relaxed, open and objective.
I am also insecure about my narrative writing skills, the art of telling a story. I can comfortably write and present lengthy scholarly papers and monographs on Nursing, on politics and on Women's and Lesbian and bisexual issues (some of you here might say I write too much on these subjects) and feel happy about what and how I write.
But narrative writing, even when describing real events from my own life, is difficult for me.
Truthfully, I have never been able to write "fiction". It always come out so melodramatic, so overall bad I can never read my own writings. So I only write from my own experiences.
I have now (as of my recent post, "categories... hot moments" in Group Sex Stories) written in more detail about my sexual encounters with other women than ever before... and most importantly, I have made an attempt to describe me, the real me, the way my mind processes things, the details I notice about people, the odd little ideas that fly around in my head, and the way I feel emtionally and physically when I am sexually involved. This is scary stuff, and not easy for me. I mean, I actually sit here and blush when trying to describe my own orgasms.
So... I want your help.
Please provide me and the other writers here with feedback. If you hate what I write, if you think I am a freaky little bitch, then go ahead and say so. But say something!! Please.
I want to post the rest of this, but I want to hear from the Women and men of Pixies before I finish.
By the way, Leigh (my "part time" partner) has helped me edit and rewrite in the past, and she has always urged me to write in a new way, to try to find my own "voice".
She has urged me to try to write the same way I talk, using the same style of speech and vocabulary I use daily when talking with friends. I have tried in the past, without much real success, but I have kept trying.
After a marathon day- long writing effort to set down everything that happened that night while it was more or less fresh and clear in my mind, (I did my own editing, so any grammatical or other errors are mine, and mine alone, as they say) I posted Part One
This is me.
This really is the way I am, more or less, really the way I talk and think.
Well, at least more so than anything else I have written here previously.
Please write soon, so I can feel confident enough to post the next two parts.
Love,
Wicked Wanda.