I sure have missed this place...

[jennaflower]

and it has only been just over a week... geez... I am at a friends place tonight.. and figured that the torture of being away had to come to an end... I needed to post... have been wanting to share something with all of you for several days... probably a good thing tho that I had some time to clear my head first... (not to mention sober up).

I hope everyone had a wonderfully fun and sexy halloween!! I know that I did. :) I gathered up enough courage to wear my costume... and I am happy to say that it was a big success.. I felt sexy as hell... and got loads of attention.. which I absorbed like a sponge...

Now.. for some shocking developments...

The halloween party was held at a dear friends house and about 30 people attended... lots of fun... booze... loud DJ... lights... fantasy... oh.. and twister. :) I had a weeeee bit tooo much to drink... but was enjoying myself to no end. Again I was the only single person... but I didn't let that get the best of me.. and was really enjoying myself.....

and then...

one of the guys attending with his wife... well... he was very flirtatious with me... and visa versa... didn't really think much of it.. until he cornered me and put my hand against his hardening crotch (yes outside of the jeans)... from that moment on.. I was doomed... I whispered at that point.. that I didn't think it was a good idea.. he was married... and I walked away...

I am only human... and after 4 1/2 years without.. gosh... my will power was giving me what for. for the following several hours... we would glide by one another a bit closer than we should.... etc... I walked into the house at one point.. sat in the living room alone trying to compose myself... when out of the corner.. I see... him in the bathroom.. light off... door open... he knows I am watching him... he calls me to him... I go.. but only to the door (my will power still hanging on)... he stands there.. within my reach.. pulls out his BEAUTIFUL hard cock.. takes my hand.. and puts my hand against him... I could only handle so much... I bent over... just enough to take his cock in my mouth... two strokes... and then stood again... took a deep breath... reminded him he is married... and that I am not up for an ass kickin.. and walked away... took every ounce of sanity I could muster..

Then.. some time later.. he catches me outside.. leads me to the side of the house... and asks me to suck on his cock... damn.. I so very much wanted to.. but knowing his wife.. and my friends were within shouting distance.. I couldn't.. I walked away.... damn.. I was trying sooo hard to resist...

A while later... he tries to get me to follow him in the house... he and I make eye contact... and I go the other way... sit with friends for all of 30 seconds and then decide to go change my costume... I get my clothes.. take them into the house.. head for the bathroom... I see him near.. and I try to get into the bathroom and shut the door.. and failed to shut it fast enough... as he pushed himself in behind me...

he shuts and locks the door... takes me in his arms... and kisses me with more passion than I have EVER felt in my entire life... my knees literately went weak.. and I sat on the edge of the tub... the perfect height... he reveals his beautiful hard cock to me again... and my resistance is short.. and futile... I tell him no.. that it isn't right... that he has too much to lose and that I do as well... that he has no idea what he has done.. that unleashing me now.. 4 1/2 year without is dangerous... he continues... and I cave... I take his cock into my mouth... complete bliss... deep throating him... a stroke or two.. then stopping.. still fighting myself for control... he wants me... really wants me... he asked to allow him to fuck me... I said no... he wanted to pleasure me... and again I refused... but I couldn't stop the desire of feeling his hot cock... and tasting his sweet lips...

then suddenly...

KNOCK KNOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT... he jumps in the bathtub and pulls the shower curtain behind him.. I wait 20 seconds and exit.. running into another room to change...

come to find out 2 of my best friends put the pieces together.. and hid to watch me run out of the room... it is an awkward situation that I put them in.. considering he is married... and his wife and him are part of my extended group....

The strangest thing... I don't feel an overwhelming amount of guilt... I know that had I had a condom... i would have continued... that when I told him "another time.. another place"... I meant it... and that the next time I see him... I plan on telling him the following "I can't be part of an affair... but if you ever find yourself come to your senses and leave that bitch of a wife.. .I will rock your world"... and I WILL tell him that....

SIGH

Anyway... I am still without a computer for now.. hope to be back online by the end of the week... no Yahoo at the moment... and only have access to email while at work....HUGS.. miss all of you... Kisses

[Lilith]

whoa! (((Jenna)))

[wyndhy]

yeah. i'll second that! whoa! (i'll bet it led to some serious self-induced pleasure, though :D )

[Aqua]

Holy Shit Jenna!

Hope you are back online soon...

((((Jenna))))

[jennaflower]

*sigh*.. I am still in a certain degree of shock... I wouldn't have ever anticipated this... and now that it has happened... I think the beast within me has been released.. I have alot of time to make up for after 4 1/2 years with virtually no sex... he didn't have a clue that awakening me in that way would do this.. my stomach is still doing butterfly flips everytime I think of the way that man kissed me... not to mention the way his hard cock felt against my tongue... I can only imagine how wonderful it would have felt in all of my other places..

[flutelady]

How well I know that unleashed beast!

Jenna, I admire your strength of character. I hope it all works out in whatever way is best for you.

[Cheyanne]

I have always thought that you were an amazing woman Jenna and this just cinched it for me! Many would not have been as stong as you were at that moment. I commend you for not giving into a situation that could have brought you more troubles than you could have ever wanted - no matter what your overwhelming deisre was!!!!!!

Good on ya woman!!!!

[nikki1979]

wow!!!! awsome hun!! glad u held off liek u did, i dont think i wudda, i think ida jumped him the first sec i had a chance!!!! ;)

~nikki

[musicman]

holy crap.....whatta story....

[cbass1976]

great story

[sodaklostsoul]

(((((((((((jenna)))))) hang in there!!!

[jennaflower]

thanks so much all for the feedback... not entirely sure how I am going to handle the next time I see him... fortunately (or unfortunately depending on how honest I am being with myself) I don't see him very often...

[Glyndwr]

Hi Jenna

You are a very strong lady to have stood up to such a temptation. I'm sure you'll do what feels right for you. Good luck ~hugs~

[WildIrish]

Don't beat yourself up over this. He literally chased you around the house! He saw that you were fighting your emotions and ignored three or four previous "no" responses.

[osuche]

((((jenna)))) ~ as someone who's been in similar situations myself, I understand how hard it is to say no. Especially when he's chasing you. ;) You showed strong character, but I know that's cold comfort when all you want to do is be *touched.* If there is karma in the world, I am sure some good stuff is headed your way.

((((jenna))))

[jennaflower]

saying no... was honestly the hardest thing I have done in I can't tell you how long... the passion that was in that bathroom was undeniable... and now.. many days later I still feel it..

In some ways.. I think that the experience was a positive one... it has made me feel sexy.. and desireable.. and built up my courage some..

[snuffy]

I think you showed more willpower than most women would have in that situation.Oh,by the way.........I'm not married,lets go to the bathroom

[jennaflower]

thanks snuffy.... I held on to my will power as best I could... tho had that knock on the door not occurred.. I am honestly not sure how much longer my will power would have held out... it was so very hard to fight against all the "right" things... :(

Meet me in the bathroom...

[Belial]

Surprise, Jenna! I was hiding in the bathroom :) :d: :sex:

Anyway, I don't think you've done anything wrong....what were you going to do, scream blue murder? You're flesh and blood. :hug:

[jseal]

jennaflower,

You are a tough and classy lady. I'm unsure that I could have controlled myself as you did. I hope the right situation presents itself to you soon...and repeatedly!

[quisath]

{{{{{{{{{{{JENNA}}}}}}}}}}} My sweet sweet friend .............. You have more will power than can be expected. I am proud of you for not knocking off his wife and just ravaging him. Oh and the friends .............. not friends to be snooping like that. (especially when they are aware of your situation) Love You Sweety and please be careful. :X

[jennaflower]

((((Everyone))))

This thread.. and your positive thoughts have meant more to me than you know. Unfortunately this situation has gotten murky to say the least.... word travels... and I wouldn't be surprised to see at some point it reaches his wife (or him for that matter). I can't seem to trace who in the group of people I know are spreading their speculation but they are... so I can only hope at this point that it doesn't reach his mrs... which will certainly lead to an ass kickin for me.... okay... a well deserved ass kickin perhaps... but an ass kickin that I don't want none the less. I am just as worried that word will travel back to HIM as well... and that he will think that I have spread the word (which I haven't, unless you want to consider me sharing it here with my friends)... URG...

regrets? hmmmm... a few...

1) that I put myself in that position...
2) that I didn't get the chance to make him cum...
3) that I didn't say something to his wife myself (Something like "You don't know how good you have it. You best figure it out FAST")
4) that I haven't spoken with him since
5) that I don't carry protection on me (after 4 years I guess I have gotten to the point where I don't think it is gonna happen anyway so what is the point).
6) that I didn't take him up on his offer to pleasure me (DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
7) that I didn't bend over when he asked me to...

Thanks all...

HUGS

[quisath]

Sweetie if your stressing about this then You need to tell her before she hears it from the wrong people. That SOB put you in this situation. What do yall think? Should she tell her first or Wait?

[Cheyanne]

Seems to be your damned if you do and damned if you don't. The sorry part is that even if the wife was told, would she believe it or think that Jenna did all of the seducing? What purpose would it serve to tell? I think that would bring more shit down anyway. I guess I would wonder why you, Jenna, are worried about the information getting back to him and have him worry about whether you are saying it or not? He is a jerk - you did nothing wrong. You didn't do the chasing or barging into the bathroom when he was already in it - he did. If anything, he deserves a good ass kicking for trying to take advantage of you. Hell, I know that I could probably gather a few Pixies and meet him in a dark alley for ya...

You told him no quite a few times. You did nothing wrong as far as I am concerned. God!!! This just pisses me off - you were a victim and now the implication is that you were wrong...not him.

[rabbit]

((((Jenna))))

I have been in similar situations before and can completely understand how you feel. There are times that I wish I could have had your strength of will...and regretably didn't. Still others where I wish I had gone over the edge....and didn't.

I am amazed and awed by your story. Wow.

rabbit