im fucked off !!!!!!!!!

[pinkbutton]

Where do i start?! well im fucked off as u can see from the title of this thread! I hate fucking men!
No i dont really sorry guys its just my mate that pisses me off he has a girfriemd and apart from very very very jealous of im actually cool with and am happy for him. But at times though to say where best mates i dont feel like i am for example next weekend he is off to visit her and i only got to know bout this tonight. Which has pissed me off somewhat ok he perhaps didnt know bout it too long ago but still i feel left out all the while and we certainly dont chat like we used to.

I guess the reason why i am so jealous of her is because me and best mate have had sex a few times so therefore i have got a certain connection with him than is somewhat stronger than usual friendship relationships.

Im sorry if your bored of hearing me rant on about this but i felt like i needed to tell someone and being as u lot r so lovely and nice i thought id tell u ! :hot:

[celticangel]

(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

[pinkbutton]

thanks babe

[jennaflower]

ah pinkbutton.. I don't envy you in the least... it has to be a tough situation... taking a friendship to the next level.. and then watching him move on in another direction... it has to be even harder to live with him...

any chance of getting a different room mate... might be what saves your friendship :)

HUGS

[Belial]

Believe me, I know how that feels.... :(

*big tight hugs pinkbutton*

[pinkbutton]

Belial - thanks for your reply babe it means alot to me cause u know what im going throuhg kind of and ur in the same position as me. I just dont know what to do some days hes like your my best mate and if u wasnt married and i wasnt with sarah then it would be me and u together but other days like last night i was second place and i know thats how it should be now he has sarah but its like he aint bothered bout me asmuch now he has her. I mean i cant just fuck him then say goodbye thats it i dont feel anything for u no more cause im not like that. I just dont go round sleeping with every other man that walks along the fucking road. And anyway ive got pudsey the only reason i slept with dave was cause i think a hel of a lot of him.

[pinkbutton]

Jennaflower - me and mate dont actually live together hun i met him online bout a year and a half ago and since then weve had a really close relationship hence us having sex even though im married to pudsey. :)

[Belial]

Originally posted by pinkbutton
Belial - thanks for your reply babe it means alot to me cause u know what im going throuhg kind of and ur in the same position as me. I just dont know what to do some days hes like your my best mate and if u wasnt married and i wasnt with sarah then it would be me and u together but other days like last night i was second place and i know thats how it should be now he has sarah but its like he aint bothered bout me asmuch now he has her. I mean i cant just fuck him then say goodbye thats it i dont feel anything for u no more cause im not like that. I just dont go round sleeping with every other man that walks along the fucking road. And anyway ive got pudsey the only reason i slept with dave was cause i think a hel of a lot of him.

Well I'm not going through it right now, but a while ago, I was hopelessly attracted to someone (who was and is a very good friend) who was taken, they then split up, and my intention was to make my feelings known after she'd had some time to recover but before I knew it, she was with someone else. I eventually told her, and now we're better friends than ever, but at the time I felt awful, seeing her with other people and knowing what they were doing. And I don't get to know all that many girls, and when I met her I thought "great, we're perfect for each other" and when it didn't happen I thought it was the end of the world. So that's why I think I know what you're going through...


*more hugs for pinkbutton*

[dicksbro]

Not bored at all, pinkbutton. Hope somehow everything will work out. We'll keep you in our thoughts.

[LixyChick]

(((pinkbutton)))

Sounds like a tough situation hun..and I wish I had some wise words of hope to share with you...but I just don't know what to say that would make you feel better.....except

The future is not ours to see....so we take it a day at a time! Here's hoping in time you'll see this situation in a better light!

[pinkbutton]

Thanks anyway lixychic :)

[Grumble]

sorry you are feeling down Hun, not surprised at what is happenning but very sympathetic

Big hugs

Grumble

[pinkbutton]

Just to let u know that im a bit happier now than i was back then for the moment anyway. Im not quite so jealous and have kind of realised that i have to get on wioth stuff and accept theor relationship even though at times it is harder said than done.
Sometimes i wonder though if things would have been more easier for me if we hadnt have slept together and i didnt feel so close to him because of that. Anyway i was happy on Saturday cause i spoke to him over the mike for an hour so that made my weekend. Thanks for anyone who has relpied to my post by the way u guys are the best. :)

[Loulabelle]

pinkbutton - you're not going to like me for this one little bit, but can I refer you to one of your earlier threads (I'm assuming this relates to the same guy, after all you say you don't go around sleeping with just anyone):

http://pixies-place.com:81/forums/showthread.php?s=&threadid=15221&highlight=pinkbutton

Seems like a lot of people warned you about the situation in which you now find yourself (i.e. getting too attached and emotionally involved with this friend of yours)

Whether you are ready to admit it or not, you are emotionally involved with your fuck buddy and the situation is now making you miserable. Being in an open marriage is harder than most of us think, and I worry about your future with Pudsey. He agreed you could have sex with this guy, but I'm pretty sure he wouldn't have given you the go ahead to fall in love with him. If I were Pudsey, I'd be pretty hurt by how much you're letting this guy's new relationship get to you. And if I were the new guy I'd be pretty annoyed that you want to be his top priority, even though he's not yours.

As many a person has found out in the past, having your cake and eating it isn't all it's cracked up to be.

Good luck with your situation, but don't say we didn't warn you.

[pinkbutton]

Thanks for your advice loulabelle and yeah your right i am a bit upset bout what u put thats your opinion and eveyone is entitled to their opinion. I know i shoudnt have got so emotionally involved but i have bnd i cant help the way i feel.
As for my mates relationship i am actually very happy for him and i wish them both the very best of luck in the future. Yeak ok ill admit im jealous who wouldnt be ?! Hes gorgeous and has the best personality ever but i know i have to move on and let then get on with it.
Me and mate even b4 we had sex had a very close freindship anyway and told each other absolutely everything from the word go virtually so it is hard for me to come to terms with that he isnt around so much etc. So apart from the sex thats what hurts aswell.