Irrational fear?

[IggysGirl]

OMG, I am so sick of the yes we are leaving then no we are not. Iggy just called and they are now "supposedly" free to leave all they need is a flight. There are 14 guys from his unit returning to ETS out of the army. He told me he could be home anytime after Wednesday but just in case they aren't back I need to go do stuff for him. So now I won't be able to sleep for fear of not hearing the phone ring but atleast he is coming home. He has turned in his tools, has orders in hand so all they need is a flight coming close enough to NY to jump on. My emotions are all messed up, I am scared, happy and anxious. Why am I scared? Don't know but for some reason I have fear running through my veins. I want to run away but at the same time I want to kiss him so much. Maybe I am like this because I have been through deployment returns with my ex that weren't pretty? When my ex would come home it would get NASTY at home, I was drunk for 2 weeks when he came home from Kuwait in 2000. I can't breath right now I have so many thoughts and emotions going on. Somebody hand me a shot?

[Lilith]

No booze for you lil' missy;) What you need is answers. Unfortunately the millitary and Iggy have none to give you yet. So what ya need now are patience!


Iggy is not your ex and you, are not the you, you used to be! ((hugs)) He will be home sooner rather than later, it's a good thing!!!

[osuche]

Take things one step at a time. Events are seldom as bleak as we imagine them to believe. I agree with Lil -- your ex is NOT Iggy and he will have a different set of reactions/experieinces.

I'll be thinking about you -- have faith that everything will turn out OK.

((hugs))

[Grumble]

mm how do you handle fear that is a question that i had to learn when I was severely depressed and had panic attacks.

I was so frightened i couldnt go outside let alone answer the phone or tlak to anyone but my family.

I learnt to concentrate on something positive, that made you happy and play it over and over in your mind and it made me calm down... a lot.

Also at the time sugarfreecandy was around and she was amazing with me having been through it herself as a teen.

So think of your happiest time with Iggy and allow the warmth of that memory soak through your mind and it may well do the trick.

I know that sort of thing helped me

Hugs sweetie
Grumble

[BigBear57]

Hon with the emotional rollercoaster this ordeal has put you through I'd say your fears are accumulative. I know it's been really tough. I think you've had some good advice on focusing in other directions and believe me getting snockered isn't an answer. You're still in my prayers and thoughts, have faith this will come to a close soon and Iggy will be home with you. I'm pretty sure I can speak for many of us here, if you need to chat.... pick a friend any friend and talk through it. You've seen in our posts you're not alone. HUGGGS Darlin... it will get better soon.

[celticangel]

((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

[PantyFanatic]

He’s coming!

Imagine changing places with him for a minute.

How do you want be when he gets there?

[IggysGirl]

I feel a little better now ya'll. I think it's just nerves. I haven't seen him in so long and I am nervous. Feels like I am going on our first date. Everytime the phone rings I lung for it! I am so ready for him to be home with me.

[PantyFanatic]

I am a strong Army girlfriend, ......




;)

[Scarecrow]

Somebody send Iggy an SOS that he will be hit by a mob of one at the airport. LOL


Calm down he will be home soon.