I felt so alone
You left feeling so empty and needing
Can't see the glitter in you
You called me all the time
Hiding behind your lies materialistic
Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
You called him a friend to help you get through it
I see your true face now
Well my tears are gone, I am happy now
Thanks for making it clear
Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
I am dead to you
You take my heart and used it as a tool
I wish that this would just go away
You can't find love you can't cry tears
And you won't be crying alone
Who are you today...another face erased

Chimaira - Dead Inside

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-Oz

I have told you things neeed to change
You never listened or came to my aid
The vicious cycle has not changed
My time's spent rearranged

Motherfuck it all
I can't stand this
Remember when I said
Everyone makes me sick
Well nothing has changed

I hate everyone

This vicious cycle still remains
Constant clusterfuck, bloodstains
Ignorance, you kill for God
Expression not allowed

You fucked it up
With your motherfucking games
Remember when I said
I was so ashamed
Well nothing has changed

You have to
Pick and choose your fights
You have to
Come out alive

I have told you things neeed to change
You never listened or came to my aid
The vicious cycle has not changed
My judgment fades away

You'll never change me
Remember we are through
I am staying here
To betray all of you
And nothing will change


Chimaira - Pure Hatred

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-Oz

Gutted like a pig, all you want is the world to bleed,
someone somewhere stole your desire
The pain akin to, being punched in the throat, and stabbed in the chest
You would rather bleed than be without her
Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears
Replaced with lackluster memories you cry, your screams play in your empty room
It's so hard to see when your eyes are rolling in the back of your head
It's even harder to speak when everything you say just comes out wrong
Your bed swallows you whole as the days bleed together, torment on the lips
Of a loved one, and if you try hard enough,
you can almost taste her, feel her pass and
Scream, OH GOD WHY ME

Atreyu - Aint Love Grand

good song, right stephy?

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-Oz

Coward, the next time you want to fuck me over stab me in the front
Can I still see my future in your eyes,
or can I picture myself dead in your embrace
And your cruel crimson red smile, kills
Everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
Instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
No one could have their moments free from your withering touch.
Fuck off like you're the only person that has ever cried or been broken by love
Spare me your pity party drunk off your own misfortunes
Wallowing in your blissful melancholy
.can you taste my blood. You knew that this would kill me. But you carried on and on
with your selfish shit., everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
burnt down my world, you killed my hope
spread out the ash and walked away
how could you just close off your eyes.
turn tail and run, you are the greatest coward
damn right I am still pissed..
next time I see you we will see who has the upper hand
kiss me fist. Taste the floor. Tired of your games. fuck off goodbye.

Atreyu - Deanne the Arsonist

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-Oz

Lift up a stone and you will find him,
cherish the beauty in the world around us
Not in buildings or crosses made by man
Judge me, fuck you, stop playing god,
Your forked tongue prophecies,
carelessly caressing the wounds of the weak
People like you should be crucified,
then maybe just maybe you would have an idea
Of what you are talking about.
My only solace is that one day,
judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns
Raise your heads, unclasp your hands,
your weakness makes me tremble
True strength comes from within
And we were given this life to live,
not exist under standards, set by some bullshit rule book
What prayers of yours, were ever answered, by degrading others
Spare me your biblical back peddling nonsense
For the people that you've hurt, and the being your dishonor,
Your fall from grace, will finally justify my means
Judge me and now you are me and what's worse
You are now a traitor to your god
Tell me Judas, how does it feel to be looked down upon
Sinners like you, should be stung up from the highest tree
you judged me and now you are me, stop playing god


Atreyu - At Least I Know I'm a Sinner

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-Oz

If I gave you pretty enough words.
could you pain a picture of us that works.
an emphasis on function rather than design.
aren't you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
and blown out knees, I have been where you are for a while..
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die. alone
I am exhumed just a little less human, so much more bitter and cold.
so much more bitter and cold.... [x3]
after all these images of pain, have cut right thru you,
I will kiss every scar, and weep you are not alone...
then I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat.
aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
and destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die
live love burn and die

Atreyu - Lip Gloss and Black

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-Oz

Another day passes by. Another attempt at love. Remains unrequited.
Why do I even bother? I should have learned from the past. I am but a statue.
Impervious to love. This punctured heart is mine. Becomes a handful of dust. Dust.
Hope has now wilted away. Wilted. Along with these dreams. That became emptiness.
A final exit becomes clear. I am self destructive. A product of this solitude.
I am riddled with shards. One simple wish now dies. Was my request so great?
One simple wish now dies [x3].
Was my request so great? Once again I drown in its denial. Was it so complicated?
Once again. I've been. Spit upon. Taken with a grain of salt. My life is gone.

Poison the Well - Grain of Salt (What's the use of having a heart?)

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-Oz

Feelings non existent. Loss of a tortured soul. So cold and fearful.
Unnoticed and unclaimed. Left as one alone. On the endless road.
To bear on for a lifetime. Of loneliness.
She sits alone and slowly fades away into nothingness.
[chorus]
and as she struggles on. Her mind begins to wander.
Thoughts of endless bliss. The wind her only friend.
Never again to be cared for.
She tries to hold her head up high.
Just a mask to hide the tears behind.
Only waiting to die. [x2]
As they sit by and watch. Another dead existance. Dreams torn apart.
As the spirit dies. Hiding behind the lies. And silent darkness.
[chorus]

Poison the Well - Torn

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-Oz

Today, this is the one I can't get out of my head....lucky I like it!

"Why don't you and I", Santana featuring Chad Kroeger (from Nickleback)

Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with butterflies
Ooh and it's alright
Bouncing around from cloud to cloud
Got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down
If I said I didn't like it then you'd know I'd lied ooooh
And everytime I try to talk to you
I get tounge tied turns out
Everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'm singing
Why Don't You and I get together
We'll take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again
And I'm singing
Why Don't You and I get together
And fly to the moon and straight on to Heaven
'Cause without you they're never gonna let me in
When's this fever gonna break
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love sick puppy chasing you around
Oooh and i'ts alright
Bouncing around from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna down
And if I said I didn't like it then you'd know I'd lied
Oooh
And everytime I'd try to talk to you I'd get tounge tied turns out
Everything I say to you comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'm singing
Why Don't you and I get together
Let's take on the world and be together forever Heads we will and Tails we'll try again
So I'm singing
Why Don't You and I get together
We'll fly to the moon and straight on to Heaven
'Cause without you they're never gonna let me in
Slowly I begin to realise that this is never gonna end and the moment you walk by it's like oh here we go again oh
So I'm singing
Why Don't you and I get together
We'll take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
And I'm singing
Why Don't You and I get together
And fly to the moon and straight on to Heaven
'Cause without you they're never gonna let me in
(repeat to fade)

With all my said unsaids / Never swallow
The idea of a happy ending
Another days memory dies
As I'm made to smile / these lifeless days
have left me with an empty heart
another wounded memory dies
I could / never / swallow your false ideals
of a lifeless / happy ending
how could words slit wrists and doors close
present day heart felt moments / killed by a slap
to the hand / another wounded memory dries
poisonous screams with messages
not thought of when released
another day here / another memory dies

Poison the Well - Artist's Rendering of Me

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-Oz

Why do your eyes paralyze me
What makes me feel this way
Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats
As rapid thinking about your embrace
and how it makes me feel
I just want to feel this way forever
Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you
Why have I been given the chance to fly
When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone
I remember your face / imprinted on angels
Your voice as beautiful / as the sounds of waves
crashing against my heart
Time slows down when you look at me
I'm infatuated with this / infatuated with you
It's so hard for me to understand why
I hadn't found you before don't dull away
hold my hand

Poison the Well - Nerdy

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-Oz

But I adore her
this will never happen
but I adore HER
this will NEVER happen
over my DEAD body
of course I think ABOUT it
burn my path if it does
shape my body as I feel
torn
shape my body as I FEEL
torn BROKEN
and if it happens
I'll BURN and crawl deeper in my hole
darkness ALWAYS says hello
and your BURNING BODY will light my way
burning body LIGHT MY WAY

Poison the Well - Botchla

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-Oz

Mk, that's enough from me today ^.^

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-Oz

When I least expected it, someone reminded me today what friends--best friends--are.


One Friend, Dan Seals

I always thought you were the best
I guess I always will.
I always thought that we were blessed
And I feel that way still.
Sometimes we took the hard road
But we always saw it through.

If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.

Sometimes the world was on our side
Sometimes it wasn't fair.
Sometimes it gave a helping hand
Sometimes we didn't care.

'Cause when we were together
It made the dream come true.

If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me
And knows me inside out.
Helps keep me together
And believes without a doubt,
That I could move a mountain
Someone to tell it to.

If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me
And knows me inside out.
Helps keep me together
And believes without a doubt,
That I could move a mountain
Someone to tell it to.

If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.

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"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, then let it, and if you have to wait for what you really want, take the time because nobody said that life would be easy. They just promised it would be worth it." ~ Unknown author

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-Summer
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