Well, I left Brian's flat and went home to sleep and think.

The next day I discovered Brian had left work too. He had phoned in and quit, at lunchtime I went to his hse. It was dark and there was no reply.

I felt sick, scared and lost.

I never saw Brian again and I never saw J again. I think I loved her, but I never knew her, I now believe that everything she told me was made-up, romantic and heart-warming, but made-up.

Two years later I saw Annie on a crowded train, I tried to speak to her, but she got off at the next stop, before I could get thru the crowd.

I do not know where J is, but I did put an ad in the newspaper - it was like a Springsteen song.

I'm not trying to get you back, I'm not asking for you to come back, I just wanted to say - I miss you, wherever you are on a crowded train, working alone, in a gallery,or in love, I just wanted to say I miss you, good luck and good bye.