So I sat down, pulled it out. Smelled like Fahrenheit Cologne. That's my favorite cologne. The letter was on light North Carolina Blue stationary. My favorite color is light blue

down_souff_nigg [11:29 P.M.]: On the folded letter were the song lyrics, "There are times when I look above and beyond..."

down_souff_nigg [11:29 P.M.]: That's my favorite Janet song, Together Again

down_souff_nigg [11:30 P.M.]: I'm smiling, right. BIG

blackinches1345 [11:30 P.M.]: aww

down_souff_nigg [11:30 P.M.]: I opened it up and the letter read (bare with me let me type it word for word)

blackinches1345 [11:30 P.M.]: ok

down_souff_nigg [11:31 P.M.]: Frederick, bare with me. I have never felt the way I feel about a niggah the way I feel about you. As you should know I used your favorite color and your favorite fragrance when I wrote this letter but if you can look closely you'll see something dried on the paper, I jacked my d***k and used my nut when I wiped it across your name. Because you're so beautiful I wish God woulda made you a female so I could marry you and you can have my kids. You're my soul mate dawg. I can't breathe with out you. I mean yea right when Toni Braxton made that song I was like B***h Right Im still breathing, but now through you, missing you when you are not near, when I constantly think about you, wondering what you're doing and if you're happy when you're off doing your book thang I can now say I can't breathe. I be about to go crazy.

down_souff_nigg [11:32 P.M.]: I have never felt love or admiration for a niggah. I mean real men don't do that, right? Or so I thought. How could I not admire you? I admired you from the first day you walked up the block with those red shorts gripping all that ass. Damn baby you got ass baby and you got some good muthaf***king ass Frederick. But what made me seek you out was the day you walked up the block to go home and you were on the phone snapping at some dumb niggah and you had tears falling from your eyes and I got really angry, I was going to snatch your phone and check that f***g*ot ass niggah you were going with at the time and when you walked past me, I checked out that ass of course but your next words made my eyes feel like convicted felons: "All niggahs want is my ass! That's all ya'll think about. I go to bed every night in tears wondering if somebody will ever love my heart before my ass! I hate my booty I should get a knife and cut that s***t off!" By then you vanished up the block but I knew then I would go after you. I just didn't know how. So I asked to use your phone a few weeks later. And the rest is history. I'm Gangsta, yea to the c***rs I'ma Thug Niggah, like Pac its tattooed on my chest and abs, which you know, because every time you chopped me up (which I love, babay you have given me the best head and ass of my entire life), you see it. Frederick I think of my dead boy when I look in your eyes

down_souff_nigg [11:33 P.M.]: [OK at this point tears is falling down my face, I had to stop reading for a few minutes while it sunk in]

down_souff_nigg [11:34 P.M.]: He was a beautiful man, on the football team, all around player. He died very tragically. I sold dope to some fools and tried to fu*k them over with the loot, since they were from outta town, I think L.A. W***emembers? They knew how much I liked ole boy because he was with me when I made the transaction. Because of my stupidity, they murdered him and left me a lil note about never fuc*ing over a man's money. I have to live with that everyday of my life

down_souff_nigg [11:35 P.M.]: I closed myself off, started being this Shrek green Ogre, this tyrant who took no sh*t and represented no one. I never lived by codes and mottos, I don't even play games or Playstation. I'ma real ass niggah who was all about the USDA Young Jeezy type sh*t, g'on and shake your ass b*tch I'ma throw this money. I had to look my dead boy's Mama in the face and tell her the truth about the death of her son. She hates me. With a passion, and she lives right around the corner from me. Stacia. The fat b***h who drives the green Camry.

down_souff_nigg [11:37 P.M.]: I never thought I'd love again or open up. But when I met you, when I finally stepped to you it changed me. You have his eyes and his smile. When you talk I'm reminded of him, it’s like the Good Lord (is he real) gave me another chance. Dawg I'm feeling you. I want you to be mine. Yea I'm all DownLo and I am far from some Put you to Bed niggah like these fake ass R&B Crooners are, but I'm gritty, I'm raw and babay ( I know you hate that word, dawg but I like it, can you tolerate my differences)

down_souff_nigg [11:39 P.M.]: I wanna be with you. Be my shawty. Be my niggah. I can’t express myself very well. I know, I mean I understand if you don't want me. I'm just a hustler who dreams a lot. You are published in a couple magazines. I got both the short stories. I read em both. You are gifted. Your talent for writing from a woman's point of view, a man's point of view turns me the f***k on. You're beautiful. I like looking at you. The other night when I snuck you in my sister's house, since she's outta town for two weeks, and you slept with me, I slid my d***k up

down_souff_nigg [11:40 P.M.]: in you and fell asleep. I didn't wanna fu*k you. I didn't wanna make love to you. My d*ck is like a dog, territorial. I needed to feel your warmth to heal me. I needed to feel your body next to mine. I watched you sleep. My nuts killed me cause my d*ck stayed hard ALL NIGHT. All night dawg, not once did it think about going down. You were so at peace when you sleep. I had put my hand on your heart beat. And then dawg I started to cum, a deep ball busting jolt dawg and we weren't even fuc*ing. Your ass was so warm and so tight that sh*t has never happened to me before. It felt so good to feel my d*ck pump into your ass, with the condom to catch the seeds. We should go get an HIV test together so I can spend a lot of time coming in that ass, that's my pu*sy, niggah. I think at that point I realized, Damn Bryson Daniels I think I love Frederick. I will hurt a niggah over you. I will protect you. If we break up next week I will still be in your life. You are my friend. I will not let some niggah destroy your dreams.

down_souff_nigg [11:42 P.M.]: Yea you did a porno before and I saw it, so what. Destiny was your stage name and that is a thing of the past, didn't they realize you were going to wake up one day and smell the coffee? Fu*k them! Fu*k any niggah who always throw that porn in your face. They grimy and miserable and they are jealous that you made it in life by leaving that sh*t alone. I see what the public don't. They saw your ass, your body, heard your moans, saw your pleasure that was really your misery. I'ma tell you what I saw. A young man doing what he had to do to survive. I saw a scared man. I saw a sexy Bahamian niggah who needed love. I saw hurt. I saw betrayal. I saw that your heart wasn't really in it. You're too beautiful, Frederick. Thank God you left the porn business alone! I saw all those things. I'ma end this letter with

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: fu*k who don’t like you. Bryson Daniels is raw and real. I never told a niggah or the Hoes my real name, Frederick. I tell you. I will call you my rebirth. From here on out your new name is Rebirth. No one is to call you this but me, if I hear anybody else call you this I will buss a cap in that ass and I'm trigger happy. I own armory I won’t tell you about. You are my Rebirth. I lost my niggah Trevor to guns and my deceit. And believe me I prayed to god to forgive me. And every time you smile. I am Reborn.

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: That's God telling me I forgive you. And when I feel you on top of me, giving me all that good ass and your heart, I feel Trevor telling me he is happy I found the one who changed my life forever. I am not going to front. I love you. I love making love to you. I love eating that booty. You should see your face every time my tongue ravishes that hole. You grip the pillow and you ass cheeks f***k my tongue. Let me stop. Bye, niggah.

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: Your boy. Your niggah.

down_souff_nigg [11:44 P.M.]: Bryson Daniels.

down_souff_nigg [11:45 P.M.]: Yea, my handwriting is f***ked but I am not Aaliyah so ain’t no Four Page S***t popping with this niggah.

down_souff_nigg [11:46 P.M.]: When I was done reading I was in tears dawg I dropped the letter on the floor and he took me by the arm and pulled me up to my feet...